No money life is so stressful! No money still have to go out know how miserable? Sometime really love those things but cant affort to buy it. How i wish i can get a job, with some saving & my eyes dun be so greedy!! See this want this see that want that. I know i'm hard to manage dear. i know u did ur best! I have no money feel like killing myself.. Have to stave myself. I can't ask from my mom isn't it? She herself also dun have enough money, have to pay household stuff, my mei pockect money & there's still little yan around! Money really not enough for her. IF ONLY IF, I DIDNT WASTE THE MONEY ON BMC!! didnt waste the money on that stupid O level!! Mom still have enough money now, wont live in such miserable life! PRAY HARD!! GOD GOD!! PLEASE DROP MONEY FOR MIE?! i know i'm day dreaming but thats the only way i can do. I'm looking for job but didnt manage to get it! Made me happy for nothing!! WHY WHY WHY! things i love alot when i went to brought that things, afew days later they will have offered! When i didn't buy then went back there it's sold out!!! WHY ALWAYS LIKE THIS!! Today isn't a good day for mie....

Thought went out with him! I'm surposed to go over to his house accompany him but end up i over slept! he didnt angry with mie or blame me. If is mie, i would have angry with him for 3 days. When he reached, i'm still busy with dolling up. He waited paitently. Then we went orchard, didn't manage to buy much things i like. We went to watch a movie "Ants Bully". After we had our lunch at KFC, we went to take photo but that stupid machine! Those pen were SPOILED! wasted our money! Taken those picture nicely but without designs! URG! ALIBABA! Next time, I'LL NEVER GO THERE AGAIN!! Then we went to play arcade awhile who know the movie started end up wasted our money again! The movie was soso la! After movie went shopping awhile then went to TAKA brought the glass deco paint. Spend $10 on those crap! After that went to Long John Silver n had our lunch. Then went home with MRT! Kinda sad today dunno how to say but my mood was superb depressed & unstable! Thus, no matter wad he does, pissed me off. Got a little quarrel. Dear i know i'm unreasonable always scold or shout @ u for no reason but sometime u too stick on me when i'm not in good mood will made mie easy to pissed off u know. Those kind of stick like keep laying on mie put ur mouth near my hair n blow those hot air out! U know i cant stand those! Simpily pissed me off! Telling u here hope u will understand & try to kick those habit ok? However u only have a few weeks to keep me accompany, spoil mie, dote mie, hug mie & BULLY mie! Hope we can stay happily or have some happy memorise before u go ns! Hope we cant be like before! i know is mie who spoiled everything! cause i'm not that sweet dear le! I'll try to change back k? Bare with mie! Maybe is cause i'm lack of money very stressful end up making mie easy to get angry or pissed off...

("v")God god! please let my life better... Give me a job, Let me have some saving so that him & my mom wont suffered! I know wad kind of girl i am. I'M GREEDY GIRL!! so please help me if i'm able to pass this obstacle i PROMISE i will change to a better girl of his n her!("v")

****crying bitterly**** 8/26/2006 12:59:00 AM

Today, went to school. Having exam today so worried. Studied till head gonna burst But luckily the exam was not so hard. Thus, i passed. So happy wor! we was realise early. But most of us didn't leave we gave sensei cards & flower so funny sia sensei seems like almost cried out. We took some photos. After that we got to went home cant joined them cause needa pick yan. Jie brought a Mickey school bag for yan. Then we went home. when reach home, took my lunch then called my BIG panda! he still sleeping like a pig sia... After some chat i felt sleepy. So i told him that i wanted go sleep le. Sleep till 6pm++ kinda tired. Then played game awhile after that update blog lo =D On the 28 August 2006 going to hav my 2nd class. Beginer 2 =D Rest a week before my lesson starts again.

("v") Hope i faster masted my jap lesson ("v")

16 August 2006
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Long time didn't update blog already >.< Woke up around 12pm. think panda still sleeping wanna him get more rest so didnt wake him up.. Then i start playing game lvl till 20 then stopped o.O Met Panda @ Orchard but i was late lol! Both of us went to lunch @ Yoshinoya. Then went to baby fair @ basement of takashimaya. Panda brought 2 clothe for Yan-san! After that we went Cine leisure shop @ the new more than words after renovation. Panda dear brought 6 disney lollipop + a tortise coin purse for mie. when we about to leaving cineleisure, saw a push cart selling a jap jap bag i love it alot alot! Hinting dearie buy for mie but he has no respond sob! Then we went Takashimaya look for my schooling stuff but didnt manage to get cause too expensive. Saw decorate glass glue. Both of us wanted to buy & play with it but lack of money sob! But at lease i brought a pen with 2 sided. =D After that imoto called me say she finshed her class. After hang up the phone, went to cineleisure cause i wants to go to the toilet. When i get out dearie ask me lend him a $1 from atm cause he wanna withdraw $20 out. Then we brought a shit toy very funny. Then dearie brought me a surprise!! THE JAP JAP BAG I WANTED!! WEE thanks dear!! =D we went yo take MRT to bishan on the way, we played the shit all the way!! LOL! When we reach Bishan, met imoto then we went to aussion brought some bedsheet & towel. Had our dinner @ KFC. Then went home, today was really happy & fun... Enjoyable! Thanks dearie..

("v")Hope to have more surprise from you! Had loads of fun today!! Muackie!!("v') 8/18/2006 10:10:00 PM


8/04/2006 10:43:00 PM

Today, went to class as usual but took the wrong bus wasted my bus fare. Been questioned and answered. After school go fetch yan then went to had my lunch. After that went to catch a nap. After nap, woke up then do those god stuff again. After that wen to had dinner with Dua kim, Ah yi, Ah teo, Ka zai uncle, mommie, imouto & mie... chatted quite long. Then get home update my blog lo! missed him alot.. but got alittle disappointment from him.. hai!

("v")Superb tired! I'm broke!! Sigh! Going insane soon >.<("v") 8/03/2006 11:28:00 PM

Today, wasn't good in the morning. Quite disapointed again cause he couldn't make it bring mie out early. I woke up eraly in the morning 7am. He was still sleeping then he told mie he will be meeting mie in 11am~1pm due to his family stuff. So i went back to sleep but couldn't sleep at all i have at that moment was fury. Unknowing, i fallen asleep around 9.30am, he called mie i was still angry at that moment then started to scold him. Couln't control my own feelings & emotions, i cried out. Then i quickly hang the phone cause i don't wanna let him hear my crying sound when he made me upset. 2nd time he called i still scolding him with tears and hang the phone. He didn't know how to explain to mie when i'm behave in this way, he send mie an sms. Thus, i read and deleted without replying him. Not long later, around 10am, he called tell me that he could go off now at that time i felt much better. While waiting for him, i doll myself up. Not to waste the time as today have loads of place to visit & loads of things to be done. When he reached, he played with yan awhile i pack my stuff then we set off to cineleisure to have our lunch at suki sushi. It's my treat, It's a rare chances lo! =X After that we went to see those photo taking machine but non of it is new so we decided to go bugis and take after dearie went for his check up. Still early so we went Heeren for some shop. We both went to toilet when i was out from the toilet, i went to basic beauty look for lady stuff. Then dearie came, then brought mie that cheek blush paper. Next thing we went was Action City, saw the Rozen Maiden Keychain which i wanted so dearie get some money and change it into coin we get 2 same person de before i could get the 1 i pray for! Thanks Dearie =p Then we went Mini toons cause i was buying waterbottle, so i brought 1(green) for mei, 1(blue) for jie, 1(milkyblue for him and 1(milkypink) for mie... After that i bring dearie to Takashimaya. Show him the toys i wanted but too expensive abit don't worth it so i didn't want him to buy in the end. Then we went to A&BC for some shop as i was looking for a pen then dearie brought the pen i was using. =D After that we went to Bugis as it's time for his check up. After his check up, we went to take photo had so much fun there with that machine which have blower. Kinda love those photos!! After that we went A&BC again this time, dearie brought mie a panda notepad & 3 Copic marker colour:B000, FBG2 & V01. Then we went back to Cineleisure to catch our movie Pirates of the Caribbean @ 5.30pm but we was late for afew mintues due to the cinema couldn't accept NETS. Thus, dearie run down all the way to withdraw money. Silly dear!! =D It was a fantasy show simply love that show!!! After that show, we went to takashimaya. Dearie had an ichy hands really very scare going those place with him! cause i really scare he break something lo!!! Then he saw a teapot kept pestering mie sing the teapot song =.= quite paisae lo!! LOL but i still sang for him cause don't wanna see his sad & disappointed face even without present =x After that we went to eat ice-cream. I had lemon & dearie had Rashberry. I think he love that Rashberry! After having our ice-cream, we went to take MRT. Dearie send mie home..When i reached home, knowing that my mei wasn't in good mood thus i say i would accompany her drink but i'm not sad so i will just drink soft drink only if after mt mom went to bed. I had my dinner then took a bath came to update blog. Update half way, Mom asked me help her massage so i went then back to my blog. Ok lar i shall stop here. Gonna drink soft drink with my mei she's drunk!! LOL

("v")Really love to go out with you! Really love the feeling of you spoiling mie & doting mie Thanks dear Love u loads!! MUACKIE ("v") 8/03/2006 12:29:00 AM

Today, wake up early for class. Had a very very sweet dream. Dreamt of underwater world. This special underwater world had loads of weirdy & beautiful creature. In the dreams, i've touched baby dolphine, killer whale & loads of other creature. Also trying to escape from dangerous creature too. When i saw the blue whale, i faster escape from a door which brings mie another place where penquin and some other animals are. Those are really sweet!! back to class, today i've been asked alot of questions today. But luckily i manage to answered with my sis help. then having listening writing again! this time i got 4 questions wrong. So sad! After that we had our work to do. Everyone was busying with their work. Then we was about to go home, suddenly i decided to buy some soft drink @ cold storage in the end brought loads of food home. When jie was paying up, i went to called dearie told him that i've restock the food. Silly sweet dearie asked mie if he need to pay mie? i said of course! =X cos i too poor le.. Cant affort to top up my card see how poor am i... Once i get home, called dearie n had some chat then he hang off as he is going to work. After that i went to see housing with my sis cause she planning to buy a house near us... In the evening, i did some housework OMG! my room was so dirty & dusty! Then keep waiting for his message till now. All right, i'm ending here cause yan staying over here tonight.

"YEAH! tomorrow can meet u again remember wad ur promises? u said u will buy mie loads of thing for mie tomorrow..." Really cant wait for it!


("v") This few day of not meeting, I'M MISSING YOU BADLY!! ("V") 8/01/2006 10:17:00 PM