Afew days has already passed. Time flys man! Really missed him madly this few days. Hard to survive without him. It's like torture mie. Next week, my jap lesson will end already. Planning to go for intermedia 1 but the only avaible in sat 4~6 it will take 4 months but it's too long i dun wanna waste time. Plus on sat i needa work after that needa rsuh to sch then dearie come come fetch mie like this i can die man! tiring lo! Hope to see ya soon.

Hope everything we planned can go smoothly. Really wish to have these days....
i'lb waiting!! i wanna those dream to come true!!

("v") Dear must keep your promise no matter wad ok? i trust you! so dun disappoint mie =D ("v") 9/27/2006 09:08:00 PM

24 September 2006
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Today very shag cause was busy with my work whole day due to my sis was still sick, he went home early. I stayed over to help out. When i reached home, feel like falling. But dearie came find mie charged my energy. LOL! Happy to see him again! He rest awhile, then we went to had our dinner @ Fishball noodless there. We had western food. Then brough fish soup vellice for my sis. Then dear went off cuase he had to book in today saw the way he wear that handsome uniform. He looked cute and sweet. Don't bare him to leave cause once he left, i will become lonely again. But no choice dearie promised mie he will work hard. So to give me better life. i believe in him. Hope to see you next week when you book out ^.^ Ganbatte ne! =D Love you this much this much this much! No one know just i know!! keke! I guess, i'm too relay on you. Dunno if i need you. when you not with me, i feel miserable, lonely, sad, worried, laughter and think alot of rubbish. Then i would make a fuss about those....

There's something best in my dearie is he always paitent with mie. Whenever i'm talking about my past, he would hear it without any complaint even those might hurts his heart or he dun wanna hear about those but he still will sit there listen to you. And also whenever i met any problem, he would handle for mie. Just like my Jie this is why i cannot dun have my jie in this family. It like someone impt to mie... he is giving mie the sence of sercure again! Yippy! keke! I know shouldn't talk about my past guy cause you sure will jealous, hurts and feel uneasy. I try ok? even u didnt tell mie i know the feeling, cause no one love these. =D

("v") Dearie i know i'm hard to handle but you still managed to do it. Hope my this dearie won't and never gonna disappear in my life ("v")

23 September 2006
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Today we were surpossed to go out. But he over slept again i was very angry cause he was surpossed to amend his fault! But he was late and didn't pick up my call! HE FAILED! However, he didn't know wether i wanna meet him up again he rushed up taking TAXI!! Then had no choice asked him to wait for mie. At that moment i saw him my heart feels hurts yet melted looking at him!~ Maybe he just mean so much to mie that's why he could made me this miserable. He promised he wont do it anymore. Hope you won't dear. We went Orchard then went shopping around he brought mie another A5 letter pad. I always buying all this crap but i'm loving all this crap alot. Hehe feel much better when he coax mie. He trying his best to make mie smile or laugh like the normal mie. However he managed to do it. It's hard for guys to coax girl now adays. Hehe you know you had never coax mie this much trying all your effort to made mie happy! without asking mie to tickle you T.T Then i went to buy SKII Facial Treatment Essence it cost $94. Then we went to DAISO shopping at PS. It's a japaness shop selling all craps of japaness things @ $2 only! OMG! We brought 8 things that cost him $16. Brought 2 bowl, 1 cup, 1 packet of jelly, 1 writting pad, 1 nail polish remover, 1 wooden board, 1 candy. This stupid candy really funny i said this sugar was for coffee or something then my silly panda said No shouldn't be cause it was put under candy corner. LOL! Then we took MRT back to AMK! Cause i needa accompany my sis to visit the family doctor. She was sick and had sore Eyes!~ OMG!! Dearie was there to accompany us too cause he scare i cant manage with those craps we've brought. But after awhile, i chased him off. It was late and he also looked superb tired i understand you are tired. Hehe he looked like so unwilling to go home i know dear! After awhile My sis & i we went in. After my sis paid his med fees, we went home. Keke like wad dearie was worrying i couldn't manage with those thinsg but my sis helped me carry. keke! Really happy & enjoyed alot. Even i'm sad but lastly was happy due to your sweet action.

("v") Hope this sweet memorise or action you've made will always there. Means, I WISH TO HAVE MORE OF THESE DAYS!! ("v") 9/25/2006 12:11:00 AM

Finally he was released from ns! BUT he didnt make his time for mie no matter chat on fone or online accompany mie chat wad is this? so wad's the point of missing mie? Wad am i to you?! However nevermind all i need to do is adapt SINGLE life again! Even without you i won't feel this miserable! WAD I WANNA SAY IS I DON NEED YOU!!! IDIOT!! Wad you really know ppl get out faster chat or accompany thier girl wad about you? just put me aside and went up! Then i can tell you this i don't need you to miss mie! don't need you in my life! Don't need me to do anything with mie!!

("v")Why my life getting worst? NO money, No job, got nothing!("v") 9/22/2006 10:25:00 PM

Today was the 3rd day he went Ns. He has been looking for mie when he's free but.. sometime the phone is not with me. Gomen ne koibito!! Hehe! This few days didn't really miss him much cause i was busy watching anime. NANA!!! This is a nice anime very sad and touching story. Sometime i feel that i'm that Nana who is navie. The charateristic is just like mine but i'm more worst with my bad tempered! I'm crazy about that anime! It's really disappointed with shouji! How can you treat NANA this way?! But she also have fault. I was that anime i suddenly feel that sometime i also like that treating him cold. Even he tried going with my sheldue! When he's free i'm not doing anything i would just slack at home! Cant stop thinking about this anime! Teach mie alot alot of things the jealousy i had! it's the same.

Dearie don't worry and keep call and check on mie! I have been a good girl ok! most of the time stay at home. After school brought my lunch then went home! Not sleep then do homework or watch anime don't really play much with Audition cause got load of problems.

Today i suddenly think of this! We as a human cannot and can never be change our charateristic! Only can grown mature and have different thinking if you feel that ypu can change you bad tempered ect your are wrong just that you are ENDURE not changing one day, it will still explode and it can never to pack it! Your charateristic is written when you are bron until the day you pass away.

Faster pass!! cause i wanna go far east Ramen Ten eat again! And ice-cream, and loads of food i wanna eat!! OMG! but how come i won't grow fat eatting so much?! Btw the Japaness language are getting harder but this anime encourage me to carry on learning!! I MUST MASTERED MY JAPANESS LANGUAGE!!!

("v")Simpily love this anime NANA never gonna forget this sad story T.T *HIGHLY RECOMMENED!!* ("v") 9/15/2006 10:50:00 PM

11 September 2006
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Today, is the last day we went out before he went to ns. Thus, i waited him to come over to my house. When he reached, he played with Yan awhile then started to watch VCD of 10 brothers! When i managed to make Yan sleep, then i quickly go change and wake him up... Then we took bus 132 to Far East! 1st thing wehn we reach was go for lunch @ Ramen Ten. Far East Ramen Ten got so many new stuff OMG! superb nice!! He had Lala spicy Ramen, i had mushroom Ramen. Wated eat ice-cream cause got Mocha Chip & other flavor he like but we didnt manage to eat cause too full plus wanna save up the money. Thus, went to took neo print again. after that we shopped around then move over to Takashimaya. Before that we went to Kinokuniya cuase wanna see those Jap Dictionary was so expensive man! Furthermore dunno which is the best for mie so just look around and try to read at it. Try to remember those verb, noun etc. After that we went to shopped around at stationary area still cant find that pen casing. Then move on to Takashimaya. Brought the Glass deco glue. After tha we went to cold storage to restock his ns stuff. Then had dinner at KFC! Then took MRT home!!

("v") No money life is so miserable!!! Dearie dun worry la i'll be waiting ok? must learn to adapt with ns life learn how to "chi ku" ok? take care!! Miss you =p ("v")

07 spetember 2006
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Today he wear until very nice.. He came to my house in the afternoon.. The moment he stepped into my house saw my sweets on the desk when i was packing up my japness candies, he ate 2 of my favourtie sweet without asking.. i was dam pissed off then started nagging @ him. After that i went to change up and we went out.. Going Orchard again.. Reached Orchard MRT, both of us kinda hungry, thus went to had our lunch @ Yoshinoya. After eating, saw Joanne working at the Pepper Lunch. Had some talked with her. Then we moving on to Cineleisure had a walk. Got nothing to shop at all kinda bored with singapore shopping centre only this few places Orchard area, Bugis area where else? Things they selling almost the same as well.. How i wished can go to Japan for shopping!! Then we decided to take photos... Taken 2 times coz nothing to buy or shop.. Furthermore it's so rare that he's wearing that nice.. Had loads of fun taking photos with him! We act as fighting instead of smilling =x After that we went to Takashimaya to see my stuffs..But didnt manage to buy anything cause we no money.. Kinda disappoinetd & ruin mood man! Then we went b1 a5 book i wanted buy it's about $5.25..We buying that book still got to say terms & condition!! The stupid pen stuff still no goods!! MAN I"VE WAITED FOR WEEKS!!!! Then we went to Cold Storage brought afew potato chips wanted eat ice cream but i feel like eatting cause had some quarrel with family wanna advoid them.. Thus, we went to Long John had my dinner OMG! i was so full... After eating i have to go home already as today got something on.. Suddenly, started drizzling.. I've become so happy cause i love rainning day!! especially i can play with the rain! We walked to somerset MRT station.. On our way back to AMK, MRT got some problem with it.. End up keep delaying at every station stopped for around 5 min.. When going reached AMK station, half way kept stopped all of the passenager kinda pissed of so do him then i asked him to have more paitient. When reached AMK, alot people alight... We decided to walk back home cause wanna save money.. It's like so long we didnt walk home le.. So when walking, he recalled those days when he first fetch me home.. we can only hug at the opposite side of my house..

("v") Really hope u have more income then can bring me out for shopping like nobody business!Can buy loads of things like free gift!! =x ("v") 9/12/2006 05:25:00 PM

I JUST CANT STAND IT ANYMORE HOW LONG DO U WAN COLD WAR?! I ALSO CANT STAND HER ANYMORE AS WELL! The problems u create & some of your attitude... wanna cook dun wanna wash up! pissed mie off!!! all of u r selfish only u r hot ppl playing till so hot all u all care is yourself idiot!if only i have my own room! I CAN LIVE IN MY OWN WORLD!! GOD WHEN CAN I LIVE IN MYSELF? ALONE NO OTHER PPL TO ENTERED MY WORLD TO MADE MY HEART SHAKY!! SUCKS LA!!! I CANT HOLD ON ANYMORE FEEL LIKE RUN AWAY! SELFISH SELFISH SELFISH!! U THINK WAD I GOT ATTITUDE U DUN HAV AH! IF AT NIGHT I SLEEP THE FANS I BLOW TO MYSLEF U SLEEP TILL HALF WAY HOW U FEEL BRAINLESS!! AND I THINK I HAVE THE RIGHT CAUSE I WASHED THE FAN!!! NOT U! I'M I HAVING ATTITUDE WAD ABOUT U? HOW I KNOW I SHOUTED TOO LOUD?! I WAS PLAYING GAME RIGHT? N IT WAS HOT! I'M ALWAYS TALK IN THIS LOUD!

LEAVE ME ALONE IF U WANNA MORE COLD WAR I DUN MIND I WILL JUST LET GO MY HANDS! U CAN SLEEP ALL U WAN DUN HAVE TO LOOK FOR MIE JERK!!

GOD FASTER GIVE ME ILLNESS BRING ME OFF FROM THIS FUCKING WORLD!! I DONT WANNA STAY ON! DON'T WANNA LIVE FOR ANYONE ELSE NOT EVEN MY MOM AL I WAN IS DESTORY MYSELF I DUN WANA CARE ABOUT OTHER'S FEELING ANYMORE!! BRING MIE AWAY FROM THIS WORLD... I DON'T MIND GO HELL OR WHERE! IT'S A TORTURE LIVING ALIVE! Now i know that my mom wanted to abort mie but it's fate bring mie in... hold mie on all i can is BLAME THIS FUCKING FATE!!! I DON'T WANNA CARE ABOUT WHO WILL SAD & HEARTBREAK!!! KILL MIE RIGHT NOW!! *Give lightning strike, give car bang, fall to death, choke to death, sleep to death, stap to death i dun mind just bring it to mie... TAKE ME TO ANOTHER WORLD that i can be alone forever the best DESTORY MY SOUL as well!!

("v")GOD PLEASE TAKE ME OUT OF THIS FUCKING WORLD!!! STOP TEH TORTURE FOR MIE PLEASE!!! LIFE IS BULLSHIT("v") 9/06/2006 11:38:00 PM

3 September 2006
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Today ah nothing special lo after work reached home bath then study for my jap lo! All the while infront of pc lo! Today didnt call or sms him! I'm really very angery & disappointed with him dunno wad to do... to him "U really dump my heart from the sky of happiness to grief" if u cant make it dun promise and dun say so much things that u would cfm u would do it but turn it into dust & tears! i've been waiting for the day we wash clothe together! But i think i'm just dreaming! i wont put too much on it! I dun wanna fall from the sky again & i know i'ld nv climb up that same old sky again! cause i dun hav that feeling & energy to climb up again. Somewhere in the sky i've build our own happy castle! But now i'lb walking on my own again... i nv plan to leave or wad but i feel that my life is meaningless! Like wad i said whenever I flash back at my memorise, i feels so hurts! Those broken pieces of my life can never be mend!!! Mayb i'm fate to lock myself to my heart! No matter wad i'll still be holding on that wad my promises& wad i can give u... i wont look so much in our future cause it might turn into dust or tears!

("v")Now is 4 september 2006... shows that we have been together for 5months really missed the smile i had from u the sweet, love, dote from u.... even now u still the same some of the feeling has changed cause once the feeling had destory, it's different even u tried to mend it there's still be gap & holes u can never be mend!("v")


2 September 2006
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Today was so tired after my work. Hope faster can get home cause there's chances to see him today. But when i reached home, called him afew times he didnt answered was alittle pissed off then i go bath... after bath watch NANA MOVIE with my mei found the jap song i wanted long ago... That movie was so touching!! Also fall for this anime soon! sad story!! I was very sad n angry with him thus, he called back me afew time but i didnt pick up... @ night i was sleeping he called me i pick up then told him i wanna slp n hang off! very disappointed!

("v") Sometimes i dunno wad u doing at home.. u always that tired i know u r... BUT THINK U GOING NS WHO'S GONNA STAY WITH MIE!! Even left this few days u also dun wanna spend more time for mie... U think eveything u did can bring me out buy this & that for me as amend? i can tell u this IS ALL BECAUSE I DUNNO HOW TO PUNISH U!! u made my heart shaky u know? How much u wan it to shake? Back to same old path that we both dun wanna b? DUN TELL ME CRAPS!("v") 9/04/2006 01:50:00 AM

1 Sep 06
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Today class was fun. It's teacher's day too. Gave sensei a potion & card all made by mie! After class, went home waited for him to come fetch mie. Then we went to Amk central for lunch @ Ramen Ten. After that we went shop awhile @ Popular. Brought some A4 size coloured paper & a rainbow ribbon. Then went to X-Zone have some game. After that he fetch me home. When i reached home, continue with my glass paint decorations. Then rest awhile. When mom reached home, she say we are going to Amk central. So all of us went. 1stly, we went deposit money. Then shop around, after that decided to go for dinner but dunno wad to eat after walked around at Amk. The last decision we had our dinner @ pizza hut. spent around $50. Poor mom no money le i still wanna eat such expensive stuff. After that we was about to go home. Saw that blind man, so i told mom i wanna buy the lottory. Brought 4. Then went home. This few days spend loads of time with my family long time didnt had so much fun with them le!

("v") Watashi no kazuku wa taisetsu desu! ("v")

30 Aug 06
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Today i went Suntec with him. After class, he came to my house fetch me. Then we set off to Suntec he told me that he have to reached home by 8pm thus, didnt really managed to enjoyed ourselve. First thing we did when we reached there was rushed to Aussion see if there any bedsheet i like with 50% discount end up didnt made any different. So didnt managed to buy anything over there. After that he brought me to Gelare for waffler ice-cream guess wad? GOT MOCHA CHIP! after that we went over to Bugis. I told him it was going to rain he say wont. Half way to Bugis it started to rain. Thus, both of us ran as fast as we could. When we reached Bugis, was alittle wet. Then we went to shop for my jacket as i was superb cold but luckily he's wearing a jacket. So the took off his jacket and put on for me. Then we went A&BC to buy my stuff again. I've spend around $36 over there for 3 puffy paint, 2 pen refill, pop-up double-sided tape, double-sided tape, empty glass, a board, a piggy note book. Then went to lovely land brought another piggy note book. After getting wad i needa buy, we decided to go home as it was already 7pm. Then he fetch me to MRT station, gave me $10 then hugged & kissed mie before he left. And i carried those crap home myself. When i reached AMK MRT station, it was rainning. Then i took bus to my house bus-stop. Then walked home in the rain! Didn't really enjoyed myself but didn't blame him cause i know the effort he puts in to make me smile!

("v")Really wish we can stop all unhappy stuff!("v") 9/02/2006 01:18:00 AM

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Went for check up today. Everything was fine also knew he reason for sudden heartache. After that met Ane, Imouto and mei @ cineleisure around 5pm. Went to took some photo @ Heerens after that we went Takashimaya brought my glass paint spend about $45 on those crap. After that we walked down to P.S new X-zone cause we needa change the $100 voucher to X-zone card of course for games lar! Then we went back to the bicycle store planning to buy a small bicycle for mei. But she seems like don't want thus, haha said dun waste the okane if she dun wan in the end we didn't buy for her. She looked alittle disappointed but after awhile everything was back to normal again. Then we went to food court for dinner but we ate quite fast cause wanna eat waffler with ice-cream. At Gelare, mei was alittle noisy. She lost of her paitent. Soon when the ice-cream is served to our table, she was so happy that she jumpped up! After that we took densha to AMK central and took takushi home.

It's a very special memorise we had so i drop down in my this little diary. 9/02/2006 12:59:00 AM