Kinda pissed off... Eh! Aunty not you always in the right... I saw it with my both eyes when the news of it.. You always wanna argue with me... As if as only you are in teh right.. sometime people could be in the right as well! URG! sometime just simply hate talking to you!! Not about small case but is like always like this... Then drop the topic it's already pissed off people already lo!... If people won't care about you not worried about you... I think you will be lonely!! You know you are most fortune... Especially mom dote you alot! Always say about you she would help you say anything! She always say you good and stuff... You only care about you yourself!! Have tyou think of going out for fun it create how many worry and uneasy feeling for her? If i dun wanna care for mom's feelings, perhaps now i'm already dead!! And won't care if she did cry for me anot... Just like me.. if you weren't care or worried about me it can't be bother in you!! You won't care i'm unhappy and knock against the wall and do crazy things... it's the same logic..

("v") Sometime i really dunno what to say... The feeling you agve when people care for you is like... You are so irritating! And was like 1 ear in another ear out!! ("v")

29 August 2007
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Hmm~ he came around 1pm.. Then we rest till 3pm++ After that we went to buy some apple, tissue, and some bread... When we came home, he watched Lovely complex... While watching, he hugging me as well... Around 7pm++ he went home...

("v") Hope you could keep the promises you made with me... ("v") 8/30/2007 11:26:00 PM

URG! EVERYTHING IS DIVING ME CRAZY... Went to hospital check up again... When we was on our way home, waiting for the shuttle bus, 1st bus was full.. actually not really full is just that a stupid looking old pervert driver dun let us in... So we gonna wait for the next bus.. When the next bus came, my mom say a dumass old bitchy lady to que up then she yelled at my mom say we didn't que...like wanna eat up my mom! The other monster looking old fat lady say we didn't que up as well... When she reached there we was already in the que of 1st... What kind of person you are will have what kind of friends.. It sound true!! behind us the lady know we did que cos she also was from the 1st bus.. it's dam stupid and it's all happen to be M*l**.. They are really NO MANNERS!!! NO education man! Go get a life bitches!! What a day... I wasn't able to swallow this anger! I wish one day i was able to move out of this stupid prison country... They lock us up like a bird & got no freedom for teenagers.. That why nowadays so many teenagers create so many troubles outside.... The people & those who got rights to do anything to this country made me hate it so much.... I wish move to taiwan a better country for chinese! Do some research and you will find out most of the world dislike Singaporean! Do you know why? Cos the peoples of this country destory the name... When i was playing internet gaming when they heard i'm from Singapore, they would make fun or start to scold me for nothing! And one day this country sure will get punishment from heaven!! Sunami? or tyhoon? Just one day itself! Not longer a save country... And with 1 blow, i guess it will back to a ground... When i reached home took medicine, and had some nap... After awhile i get up for dinner... I was so pissed man! My mom used my med spoon and just dump it in the sink with so many bowl not washed.... the med spoon couldn't be used due to too oily!! No matter how i was it's still OILY!! Fu** up man I CAN'T STAND THIS UNTIDY HOUSE!! And that sis of mine keep using my chair to walk & not her own leg... If u dun like walking with your legs then chop off! Lastly, is those stupid bowls... I'm doing the washing again when i'm sick!! I HATE IT MAN! I HATE MY MOM DOING THE COOK!! NOT THE FOOD BUT IS WHEN FINISH EATING, EVERYONE WILL JUST DUMP THEIR BOWL AND WHATEVER THERE WAITING FOR SOME NOOBS LIKE ME WASHING IT UP!!! I guess this blog is dead... No one will see... I create for that somebody will just NEVER look at it... So what's the point? IT'S STUPID STUPID STUPID!! AH CRAP!! what kind of relationship i having?! It so shity!!! Hot & cold for nothing... i feel that it's so miserable to love you.. But how can i stop my feeling not only towards you and to everyone......................

I dunno why alot outsiders love this country so much! But i'm simply hate it!!! I wish i wasn't born here.... I love Japan, I love Taiwan!! They are lovely country... Or i could say I HATE BEING A HUMAN!

("v") Stupid life! Give me a break man!! GET OUT OF THIS STUPID CAGE!!!!! AND STUPID LIFE!!! ("v") 8/29/2007 12:14:00 AM

I felt that i wasn't a good girlfriend of his.. I'm alway asking so much from you yet when i think back what have i done for him? I'm selfish i know it! I certainly do! I always find those feelings & things i lack of from my childhood and wants it from him... I realise that I'm a nasty, bad, inconsiderate, not undestanding girlfriend... I've been searching for those feeling i lack for in the past but i didn't know what i really needs or wants... Yet i keep asking for more & more... Maybe those feelings & things i wanted of needs, is just around me just that i didn't make the effort to look at things which/who close to me.. Searching it far away yet it's just right infront of me... Perhaps he's tired of me... Our relationship getting blant... It's tasteless for me... What have happen to us... I dun really know... Recently, i was sick... so weak! Because of it, it torture me! I cant eat my tibits or candies... Awww~ Today, my god told me that if i wanna get well, must faster learn... If is this case i rather sick! Keep on sick till i no need to work for them nor myself... Is better if i've lose all energy.. just sleep all day another died... Cos i'm sure i will be the happiest... Cos i lost the most miserable & torturing feeling as a human... But i didn't want my mom to be sad for me! Time faster move on.... Faster end this miserable times........... You know? i feel like drinking this few days but i wasn't feeling well and later i have to visit my heart doctor.. Thus, to aviod, i didn't drink......

8/28/2007 03:15:00 AM

21 August 2007
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Today, happened alot of things... woke up around 10am, due to Yanyan fall down and injuried her hand.. Mom woke us up! then i start to prepare my stuff as i having appointment in SGH @ 12.20pm for my check up... Was suppose to go with mom, jie, dear and mayb Yan.. But ended up i hav to go myself and meet up dear over there... When we reached was 12.40pm... And the stupid doctor went for lunch... Thus, we have to went back @ 2pm... First time he been there with me accompany me... After that, we went MS... He brought the pajamas for me, and i manage to get myself another one @ suntec, Carrerfour... However, didn't manage to get my bra... Perhaps have to wait till next time... Then we went to Cathay to catch our movie, Secret @ 5.20pm... Had fried chicken & Nachos...The show was so....Touching, sad & nice.. I love piano.... After the show, we went shopping around orchard area.. Treated dear his favourite Honey green tea with pearl... & i have my papaya! After that we brought a couple T-shirt.. And went to have our dinner @ KFC... Then we went home... I'm sorry dear made you in such tired.. Now i get wad i wan so must save money for my digital camera... がんばります！

("v") had alot of fun with you dear! What i can say is, we played the whole day! I LOVE YOU, MADLY, HELPLESSLY, SERIOULY and you made me HOPELESS WITH YOU! =D Will our story move on till both of our hair grows white?("v")

20 August 2007
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誕生日　おめでとう　姉さん。。。On her special day, she brough her own birthday cake, was so patheic... Sorry! that we didn't put much effort.. when i have money i'm sure to amend you okay? For the being i only can wish you happy birthday!

("v") 　姉さん、ごめんなさいね！("v")

18 August 2007
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When to work even though i applied for leave.. But can't bare mama woking alone.. Doing so hard alone... Thus i went... But due to those stupid customers which pissed me off and my that kind uncle which too kind end up giving me endless of fussy customers.... I pass! Then told my mom that tml i'm not going work.. Going Min Hui's birthday chalet tonight... Might dawn... Around 6pm, called dear.. he just woke up.. But i know how tired he is.. So as i.. I also fallen asleep.. When he riched, i was kinda pissed off with something which i dun even know myself... we took cab to Min Hui's Birthday after food, they took photo... It's alittle awkward that they asked me to join in with their photo section.. I'm not part of they ex-classmate.. However, they are fun and always that friendly! Really jealous of dear having such a bunch of nice friends... Unlike me.. Everyone of they ex-classmate who went, went home.. Due to that, we going off too... One of his friend, friend, drive us out of the chalet and let us alight at MRT station.. Suddenly they decided to go Pei Shan house for Majong... i was supposed to stick to my dearie so i go as well.. Pei Shan & his brother relation was like so close.. And they have a loving parents... Envy of them too.. Having such a nice family... They played Majong till 3am++, half way thru, a cockroach went into Pei Shan's room.. All of us jumped up... But didn't manage to get the cockroach.. Then all of us went to bed... woke up around 10am++... When to have breakfast @ a resturant of dim sum.. Then took the train home... Who know in the MRT, we met a mad guy.. But Zhong sat beside him.. Man! was kinda scary!!

("v") Never fail to had so much fun with his friends... Mayb i didn't met of a bunch of nice friend like them... When i had him, i had every thing i wanted... Cos he will simply fill up those holes in my heart... ("v") 8/22/2007 03:30:00 AM