Well, i woke up around 4pm++ but still went out with my mei... we went suntec to buy my camera... Finally brought it.. But i took the money from Dearie gave de $300 & uncle gave de $150 (faster save and put it back! Especially dearie de cos the money we are gonna use for our cruise)... We went shopping again.. Brought 3 more cat wallet that cost me $13.. Then we went to buy my camera at harvey Norman... The camera itself is $450 but i upgrade the warranty to 5 years so have to pay another $85 total of $534.. Sob can't pay my hp bills liao.. Gonna ask mama help me pay 1st then pay her back again... =S Then we have dinner @ kfc... a buddy meal for $10.50... After that we took train home....
("v") Got wad i wanted now have to concentrate on saving money.... ("v") 9/26/2007 10:44:00 PM

OMG! the pear was damn nice!! Just finish 2 bottle of Vodka ruby now we try pear! didn't know it was sooo nice!!

("v") You say u will do something to the relationship i hope u really mean it & not another empty promise... ("v") 9/25/2007 10:37:00 PM

Today, he came after work, help me format my pc.. However he said will buy me Buger King breakfast but end up wasn't... We quarrel again... Then he went to slp until forget wad the purposed he coming... When around 3pm he asked me... how long it takes to format cos he gonna leave at 5pm.. WTH!! if u r rushing then help me do why u come here & slp slp slp... WE quarrle again... All of suddenly we back again...

("v") I hate those feeling!! Empty promises after another.. Chances is u grab it yourself and not keep asking from me!! Then u do it again ("v") 9/24/2007 10:32:00 PM

After those quarrel, we are not back to where we are... Something is missing... And i think i lost some feeling in it... He didn't manage to contact me... Until the day he went to work... Why always have to wait till so late then contact me? Aking for another chance after another... So we still the same.. But for me, i knew some funnky new friends in css... They are smallsalt, Ironhide, bk, tiger beer, biz, parasite, refrost, RisingDeath, spear, ludi, xiang & etc... When i playing game with them, i can forget abt the worries & sadness in me...

("v") i know something is missing between us.. No matter wad, i must get the feeling back cos... I cherish & loved you madly also wanna our relationship to last forever.. But do you? It's make 2 hands to clap.. Even i tried how hard u dun wanna take out ur hands to clap is still nothing! ("v") 9/23/2007 10:24:00 PM

STUPID STUPID STUPID LOW KHENG WEI!!! YOU'R AN IDIOT!!! I didn't angry cos you went to watch movie with your family... 881 i know this kind of movie should be watching with family members... And I REALLY DIDN'T ANGRY ABOUT IT! when you care about me i was really happy.. At lease you will care about my feelings... But after those talk dunno why & how we start argue.. Unhappy coming toward me... It really ruins those sweetness you gave... You said will online accompany me... But you know i've waited for so long?! i really hate it.. And you can really dump me aside and ignore me!! Maybe tomorrow you really won't come bring me out for movie! I'm trying hard to make myself happy... Cos i dun wanna be moody that might destory our hard build relationship... But this time is not me who start 1st... Futhermore i also understand and know... Being with me also need to spend time with family... Sometime i really wonder being a good girl of yours got anything good? What surprise will you give me? Only for those occasion? we still quarrel and you just dump me aside & ignore me... So wad's the point of being a good girl? So from now on i must learn to be naughty girl... Learn to club, flirt, smoke, drink.... Is this the girl you wan to see me turn into? I REALLY HATE IT!!! WHY ALWAYS SWEETNESS HAVE TO BE REPLACE BY UNHAPPINESS??

("v") can i still look forward to our trip? as well as our future?? And how many times did you surprise me? ("v") 9/14/2007 12:55:00 AM

10 Sep 2007
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Woke up around 12pm... waited for him to come... He reached around 2pm++ we went to have lunch at my house downstair Kopi tiam... was kinda stupid... we order 3 dish and 2 plain rice... i tot was he have his own choice of food and i have mine but the person go prepare it into 3 dish & 2 plain roce.. it cost us $6... Think lo! 2 of us how can we finish those food? LAME ISN'T IT? Then we went to watch the movie Ratatouille... It was BORING!!! feel like another wasting of money... After the movie, we went home cos i wan honey to get enough rest as well... After fetching me home, he helped my jie carry heavy things home... Thank darling~~

("v")Looking forward on our future...("v")

9 Sep 2007
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After some argue with my mom, she didn't care me much... I've sent alot of msg but dearie didn't reply thus, i goes again with my rubbish... Nag at him... I woke up very early, around 6am.. Dearie after work, he came and accompany.. He brought BK breakfast.. Feed me eat liek i'm a queen... LOL! After that, we rest on bed and he fall asleep that fast.. I disturb him rest.. then he woke up we start searching for Audition music... He was sweet enough... That made me cried for the whole day.. Cos i wasn't happy... console me, comfort me... After that i do facial for him... At evening we went to have our dinner with my mei~~ Had fishball noodless, carrot cakes, chicken rice... rose syrup, lime juice, ice lemon-tea... Had a sweet day...

("v") Wish to have more of these days... Dear must keep your promise! okay! 3 years and i'lb waiting!!! ("v") 9/10/2007 07:47:00 PM

Today, woke up early... Went to market had kway chap with dearie.. It's the 1st time we had this kind of food with have together.. Kinda sweet... *Blush* i was sitting there like princess then he went to order food & drinks... All i need to do is sit there wait for food to come.. As always!! He's a gentlemen okay! =D We planned to watch movie in the afternoon.. After food, went to ta bao for nee.. Then went home, i took my medicine, then both of us falls asleep until never watch our movie... But okay lar he's tired! He come after his work lo! Didn't even got chance to rest... Then i sleep till 1am++ get up for supper & bath... LOL! It's not that i'm still angry just that i always run away from all this... I have no courage to face it... So i sleep all i can...

("v") Time faster heal everything please!!("v") 9/06/2007 03:54:00 AM

Find this song dam nice.. so i shall post it's lyric here...

You and I were never meant to be together
And now it's time for me to go
But, deep in my heart you will always stay forever
In another place, in another time

So, walk with me and let me hold you close
And we will share this last memory
And dream about our love
And what it means
To love someone enough to set them free

In another place, in another time
In the space between any reason or rhyme
Someday we'll have it all
And our love will shine
In another place, in another time

You will always be the one on my mind
In another place, in another time 9/05/2007 02:11:00 AM

I SIMPLY HATE THOSE OCCASION! Always because of PRAYING stuff end up MAKING MYSELF IN SUCH A MESS!!! I feel confused & guilty towards myself as well as my mom… I’m so sorry for what I’ve done to her… Yelling at her “ARGH!! I’M EVIL I WILL GO TO HELL” I know I’ve hurts her heart again… But I don’t have the courage to say sorry to her… Why am i always behave like this! Whenever I made a mistake that hurts my mom, I always can’t get the courage to say sorry to her… Why only towards my mom, Sorry is that hard to say out? ARGH! I HATE THIS FEELING!!! This time is about a FAT NEIGHBOUR who lives at 9th floor… He always come down took the food after praying… And I didn’t see he did any help.. I felt so annoy by his voice & action.. Whenever I heard his voice I felt so uneasy… From the 1st sight, I didn’t have any good sense about him.. I can say that I dislike him!! Then I have to do those stupid amulet just because of him.. Now, because of him again, I had some argue with my mom… Spoiling our relation… I dunno what to do right now! I realize a lot of my family members dislike me.. But I can’t be bother… Anyway to me they are are nothing. But they are someone who always bullying my mom.. That’s why I dun talk to them at all.. I’ll just reply on what they asked and end my sentence… Had another incident today… When I was taking meat, my grandma suddenly block infront of me… Then I went to her side and take.. Who know she was smoking as if my eyes is on my stomach… Then say said me didn’t see… AUNTY!! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SEE WHEN YOU HIDE THE CIGARETTE THERE!! I think I should change myself I dun wanna talk about others anymore… If I hate that person, just hate in heart… Not going to mention anyone again.. I’ve learn my lesson today! After my mom take over the god stuff.. I notice that I start to hate humans alot… as well as god!! Why do I own them these crap! Feel like killing myself!

(“v”) How I wish I could say Sorry to my mom easily… And please stop creating more of these stupid occasion! (“v”) 9/05/2007 01:12:00 AM