today, my work was very very busy.... i non stop working till 3pm then went for my lunch... wad i can say is I've improve in my work~ After lunch i went to take out all the case note that needed for tml~ Then i have nth to do... so all of us was joking & elling jokes abt Ms seetoh~ Make fun of her like mad~ LOL!

My feelings:
Why do i feel so hurts in my heart? why my heart is aching whenever i think of you... And the pain is like getting more & more painful each & everyday... i just dun understand y... I've tried so hard yet u still dun wanna move~ I shd really let my heart died in love~ I always sucks in wadever things do~ I'm a failure girl~ In everything~ They won't give me a chance to amend no matter how much i wish or cherish! Right now, he no longer hug me and gave me kisses~ I missed the way he looked into my eyes and say i love you~ Also the way he called me dear~ However i missed those feeling he ever gave to me~ Really!~ Even now no matter how hard i searching for that feeling from him, i can nv get it anymore.. Perhaps it's time for me to stop bugging him~ If we really meant to b couple for life, no matter is 1 yr, 2 years or even 10 years he will come back find me~ If I'm not the 1 then i shall giv u my blessing then~ Now i just nid to concentrate on my work~ Must work & tired myself until i can stop thinking of you~ Gonna numb myself with alchol & works~ Will he cry for me and b by my side if it's the end of my life? I missed those eyes when he look into mine~ i Missed those tears that he used to drop for me~ But now everything is too late~ And i can't manage to do anything back~ Like i said once the feeling is gone, you can nv get it back~ Unless there's a mircle~ Like in the past i used to hav for once... I guess i won't b that lucky anymore~ I'm not longer a lucky girl of his~ It's not my fault or his~ cos we did/tried all we can~ just can say it's not the right time again~ No regret that i was twice ur girl that lived in there~ Ur red, warmth, bloody heart that used breathing for me~ I still loved you as b4. My love for you, won't b or never b any changes~ Good luck in everything u do~ Wish u get wadever things u wan in life~

("v") If u were to ask me wad i wish for now is... To end my life! Only this way, i then can end all the pain, hurts & sorrows in me! But at lease let me see your tears again & the look of couldn;t bare me to leave ur side even just for 1 sec ("v") 1/28/2008 11:37:00 PM

Ahh~ didn't manage to rest well thus, i couldn't wake up this morning.. My mom called me so many time... When i woke up still kinda pissed off~ Sigh~ Tiring~ but i must overcome this laziness of mine.. I must start working hard get some saving~ Also help to save for the future~ Valentine coming i really dunno wad to get 4 him.. It seems like wadever i wanted get for him, he knows everything~ Sigh~ always didn;t manage to give him a suprise... But i wanted to get a couple watch, as he nid a watch as well as me~ Collecting watch =X Or wallet.. As his wallet wasn't in gd condition already~ And i didn't hav a proper wallet too~ Or a tie that he said he nid it as well?! Hai~ really dunno lar~ Plus so broke sia~

("v") Faster got my pay~ i nid it urgently~ We faster get back to the loving couple that make ppl jealous =X i just wan more care, concern, love, pamper & attention from euu~ No more cold war pls~ Why do i find it hard to trust him? Keep wondering if he has another girl outside~ ("v") 1/27/2008 09:29:00 PM

ok now i update my blog again~ Erm~ where shd i start? we've back to normal however, there's still some feeling missing~ And we went out wasn't that loving anymore! next i would liek to update is... I've found a job~ is a perm job~ working in a clinic of Singapore Sport medicine Centre... As a receptionist, admin assistant, data entry, customer service and so on~ loads of things waitinf for me to be done XS sob~ Today after work met him, spent SGD$304... on channel cosmetic & Ettusai facial stuff~ Then he treated me dinner @ swensen... LOL~ Then i continue shop after awhile i went home alone as he went back to office continue his work....

*Urgent
I owe mom $371, Jie $304, PotionPalace $260, Myself, $1220
Things i need to buy/get ~
*Watch, sleepwear, towel, *Bra, H2o body lotion, Bunnie's clothing, Lip blam, contact lens (black), *Spectacles, Psp(purple), Mp3(pink), *Make up remover (Papaya), *SkII, *Hair oil, *Conditioner, *Cosmetic, water bottle, *Jackets, *Hp memory card & batteries, *Wallet, *Bag, *Organizer, clothings, hanger..

("v") Hope i do wells in my job~ No more mistake pls! And i can stay longer & get more saving! ("v") 1/26/2008 09:00:00 PM

Okay i update wad happened to me recdently... on fri night met up Joanne.. We went to had cheap japanese food... Then went around shopping awhile, we went home... When i reached home was kinda feeling unwell... Feel like vomiting~ Then i just ignore & do my stuff~ Then went to bed... woke up in the middle of night... vomited and start having fever~ I tot i had food poisioning thus, taken my sis med.. Went back to slp~ So i was on MC for 2 days.. On Sun, met up jie cos i wanted buy my new mobile phone... Sony Ericsson w580i pink! Then we was planning wad to get for my mei for her overseas attatchment~ We planned to get her a watch~ Lastly, i found a job.. working in 7-11... But i quitted after working 2 days... was super boring, and tough handling with money~ Almost lost $100/- Hmm~ gonna get another job soon~ And tml i going bring all my drawings stuff go down to ITE Macpherson ~ Cos i wanna study!!

("v") Hurts ah Hurts! Must push yourself ler~~ You slack long enough le now is the time to push all u can... I wanna get a part time job while studying~ MUST WORK HARD!!! ("v") 1/10/2008 04:14:00 AM








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