Today we supposed to meet up... He suppose to come to my grandma house for steamboat... But he said he dunno when his grandpa side steamboat will end... and i've keep waiting since then... He dunno how much i look into this day.. I've been wishing this day faster come... Recently i'm over sensitive or wad i dunno but the feeling he gave me was like he dun love me anymore... And had another girl in his heart... Thus, i set this game rules to myself~ If this day come, he did come, mean i'm over sensitive.. If you like that girl u sure will go for her invitation to her family side right? and the next day will bring her to ur family side to intro her to ur family.. Am i right? Unless u r just not serious abt it... However, i was told that he will b going out after that with his family side.. i dunno was it true.... I find it hard to trust when he's treating me this way... This game, i've lost~ I'm lost i really dunno wad to do... i smsed him, called him... but still unavailble to reach him... And there's loads of misunderstanding betweens me & my family... Especially my mom! Why things turn into this way? I think i shd get my mouth shut no matter where i am... As for him.. another disappointment... he dunno i've been waiting till now... Let fate decided bah~ If i meant anything for him~ he sure will come find me back when he notice i'm gone... okay~ i shall stop here & continue my drinking... Tot i was sick almost faint when i was working this morning... Really really wish something bad happened to me... GOD PLS END MY LIFE WITHOUT PAIN!! STOP ALL THE PAINS & HURTS FOR ME PLS!!

("v") Take back the ugly, stupid, unfair life u have given to me!! ("v") 2/07/2008 03:22:00 AM