--Dumdum wants to live in her fairytales, FOREVER --
6/30/2008 11:40:00 PM
now, i finally found some 1 who loves me the most and & pampers me.. although she's naggy at time.. But seeing her care & effort, her true colors While i was in dilemma, she gave me the best advise.. when i'm in trouble and trying hide it, she will show extra care... when i was with her, she was the 1 who asked always if i'm alright? and if i feel unwell, she askes me to wake her up... when i'm upset to let my kaka go, she will try comfort me and even let me to have kaka back... when i'm broke she's the 1 who always asked if i have enough money? thinking back, wad hav i done 4 her? i'm afraid i might go blind.. recently my eyes... feels weird... always suddenly it'll go blur, the only thing i see is white and bright image! !! ~ i'll learn to love her back... gonna learn to put 80% of love to mama and 20% for kaka~ i think i'm really tired le... all i wan now is to b happy... wanna spend the rest of my life with my mama! cos all along only i've hurts her & shown her bad attitude her... and her, she did everything for my sake
--Dumdum wants to live in her fairytales, FOREVER --
6/30/2008 02:02:00 AM
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
sunday i gave kaka away le... sob! when i passed to that uncle.. my tears gonna drop already yet i endure until after work.. in van, i couldn't stop my tears... when i reached home jie's at home she saw me with red eyes and nose... I really feel that mom changed alot.. she not only no longer that naggy also... she love & adore us alot... When nee not in sg.. Just me and mom.. can feel that mom always put in effort talking to me... now i talked to her more or less.. even my problems i start turning to her.. and not hide from her... cos she no longer naggy.. like the dog... i gave away cos of she nag... and kaka dun behave... end up i was so upset.. but mom was so care and concern abt me... she called asked my jie how am i while she's working~ when reached home the 1st things is come to my room check if i'm ok anot... then she encourage me.. comfort me... she say if really cannot bare then take back.. the mist if we work must lock her up~~ mom already let us alot le... and i just found that i really lose weight,, not abit is alot... the bracelet mom brought is better more and more loose~After so many things happened... i really see miracles... from my bday onwards... now mom changed alot.. i've seldom throw temper but sometime she naggy i keep telling myself endure! still do attitude.. must continue changing! JIA YOU SY! Here are some picture of my cute kaka! and my ke lian pinky!
kaka wearing my pant
LOL! Isn't this cute?
Her fav hobbie.. hide under my bed and b crocodile
SUPERB CUTE RIGHT?!
Dun u think she look like rat?
See my poor phone...!
So sad la.. My baobei pinky bcome lidat!
When she know i'm angry with her!
Gonna slp with me!
when i not @ home, she will take my bed as hers!
--Dumdum wants to live in her fairytales, FOREVER --
6/24/2008 05:01:00 AM
Thursday, June 19, 2008
everyone hates to b compare... SO DO I!! i know la.. i not so good looking as u... MY HEAD IS BIG, I"M ALWWAYS UGLY! IN ANYWAY I'M ALWAYS LOOK THAT UGLY TO U LOOK THAT BAD TO U.. THEN FORGET IT LA!! Go hk EAT MAGGIE LA.. BIG DEAL AH? i tot u r the 1 most understand me.. i'm just WRONG!!! YOU AND OTHERS R THE SAME!!!! WHY TODAY I"VE HURTS U WITH MY WORDS... THINK IT!!! U KNOW SINCE U GO HK UR EVERY WORDS ALWAYS HURTS ME? UNTIL I BARELY TALK TO U!!! AND I DUN REALLY MIND NOW!! COS.... it wont bother me anymore... all i wish is TO LEFT THIS WORLD.. LEFT THIS SICKENING WORLD.. EVERYTHING WAS A LIE.. even some 1 who so dearly... from young i always jealous of u... no matter how u did.. there's still someone will love and pamper u.. me ley? only blames... if anyone wans kaka! i will just let go to.... i just dun nid anything anymore.. i;ve tried to b happy! the facts was i nv able to b happy!right now i dun nid anyone care NOT EVEN U ANYMORE!!.. everyone love to commit the same mistake... know wad ppl did to hurts but nv realise u hurts them too... or b4 they hurts u!
--Dumdum wants to live in her fairytales, FOREVER --
6/19/2008 02:06:00 AM
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
ha! i dunno wad to say... i think kaka made me burst all my anger out.. Yet still enduring.. until feel that my blood is rushing up my brain... now even i breath, can smell of blood.. the 1st person i find when this incindent happened was him.. ye he can't gib me any console.. really feel that he bcome that useless! Everything was a lie... lucky this time i nv 100% believe in him.. i really think he's not the type of guy i wan anymore... that gentlemen he, that caring him, that alert him, that sweet him wasn't 4 me anymore! kaka really made me angry till a rush of selling her away~ Only my mom know how much that phone meant to me... i used up all my beloved saving money just for that~ i really scare kaka near me i will abuse her.. i see her now feel so angry that wanted kill her or throw her out! When i see my phone my tears gonna burst out... i guess i will b drinking backk.. kaka made me kick the habit away... yet now~i shd hav listen to mom... dun keep a dog... and this incident... alot ppl said " who ask u anythow put ur things!" IT WASN'T MY PROBLEM... i always left my things on the table! why always u guys dunno how to comfort ppl nvm la go add in oil 4 wad~ i can say u guys dun understand me well.... this kind of is it really my friends? HA! when i feel like posting the picture of my phone then say~
--Dumdum wants to live in her fairytales, FOREVER --
6/18/2008 04:51:00 PM
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
The pain is killing me! It has been long time i nv felt this pain already~ I wet my bed with blood.. MY BELOVED BED~ faster wake up and wash up then feed kaka... i was totally strengthless! plus the pain~ used 30mins to change my bed~ Then feed kaka.. notice alot worms on the floor.. DARM BEES! they not only build hive at my house... also bring those mud with worms! end up i hav to clean again.. so yucky.. i dun even dare walking to the kitchen.. alots of worms & ants biting the worms... faster feed kaka then lock her in my room le... then i slp for the day until 3++ wake up watch drama.. then play abit game~ and go nua again~ tml MUST clean up my room.. WAS DAMN MESSY! See my room also bit pissed off~ and must go mail out those 2 cards~
--Dumdum wants to live in her fairytales, FOREVER --
6/17/2008 12:46:00 AM
Monday, June 16, 2008
This is wad i do the whole day.. rushing monkey's and Iron's bday card! Made my 10 fingers all is super glue... end up hav to keep washing and rubbing until now 10 finger so pianful~ But the result i quite happy with the cards~ Here's some photo of these few days/week... Got me, kaka, apple, him, cards i've made Mostly is kaka de... Cos I SIMPLY LOVE HER LOADSSSS!! U KNOW WAD?! she's getting prettier!! She's changing her fur... now she hav a very shinny fur and a pair of beautiful eyes.. that makes me also love to look at her~ Ytd Jie brought alot tibits 4 her until almost $100! NOW ONLY LEFT NEE NEE NV BUY ANY DELICIOUS FOOD FOR HER!!! i think when nee's back she sure fall in love with my kaka~Cos kaka know how 2 heal our heartache, sorrow and create smile on our face! With her i really manage to let go every unhappy things.. and drop it from thinking.. Cos she used up my time too!
SEE! SHE LOVE ME MORE THAN ANYONE!! When i'm down she's there drying my tears~ Her slping habit~ She nids my slipper to b her pillow and day time my slipper become 1 of her fav toy! T-T He & kaka! (he also loved kaka alot.. infact he pamer her more than me *now*) While she sleeping Sleepy Kaka! Aren't i cute? if i do LOVE ME MORE! And now she's becoming more beautiful~ i Love her beautiful eyes~ 2 naughty girls takeing photo! She looked like a bunny~ I Love this pic
Both of their cards~ Monkey's card! Iron's card~ The slipper Tracy brought for my xmas present.. Now i open up and use it! Apple & Kaka! (Kaka's is jealousing of apple! ) Then she turned very naughty for that day~
--Dumdum wants to live in her fairytales, FOREVER --
6/16/2008 12:36:00 AM
Thursday, June 12, 2008
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! BORING ARHHHH!!! recently i also dunno wad i'm doing faster come back from HK then i can find a part time job then take up training course for kaka~ Recently dam lazy and feeling unwell.. abit sore throat~ Now training kaka to b my slave~ LOL! Controling her diet~teach her pick up rubbish then go to my room and throw the litter into the dustbin~ she's doing fine... and she's better now~ More guai liao~ still do bite some time... but cannnot play too much with her.. she will go crazy and start biting She's like my black guardian~protect me in the night~ whenever i hav nightmare and cried, she will lick me up and lick away my tears~ she like know my sorrows~ and understand me.. However there's other ppl around she will start to b naughty again... not behaving again~ ask her sit she run~ ask her stay she also run~ when u get food she like going crazy~ When she's alone with me, everything is fine~ this sat night she's gonna stay in jie's house~ everything not buy yet.. i really broke liao cos of her~ T.T
--Dumdum wants to live in her fairytales, FOREVER --
6/12/2008 05:55:00 PM
Thursday, June 05, 2008
STUPID LINDA SIM! IF U R READING MY BLOG THEN READ THIS!!! CAN U STOP BUGGING ME FOR MY BLOG!! ANYWAY MY BLOG IS NOT FOR SOME KPOS LIKE EUU!!! IS FOR PPL WHO REALLY CARES ABT ME! SO DUN ASK ME FOR MY BLOG AGAIN! I WONT GIB U A SINGLE SHIT! AND STOP BUGGING ME!!!! RAWR!!
--Dumdum wants to live in her fairytales, FOREVER --
6/05/2008 11:16:00 AM
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
hmm~ slpt for the whole day~ mom asked me y ytd nv ask dua pui come... i replied "i did! But he say he not free~" dunno why she asked me this qns... Hmm~ dun like me i can stay away from ur vision de! since that's the case i dun think u nid to know wad happened to me~
--Dumdum wants to live in her fairytales, FOREVER --
6/04/2008 10:12:00 PM
just finish my celebration~ was kinda fun & special.. Mircles really appear~ 1st time this happy on bday~ 1st time spend bday with friends beside tracy and joan~ i really did enjoyed... Thx to ezekiel, shane & zhi xuan for coming & the expensive chocolates~ i didn't serve them well in my house hav no sofas adn chairs~ hahah~ And hope u guys enjoy the steamboat of my hard work mama did 4 me~
--Dumdum wants to live in her fairytales, FOREVER --
6/04/2008 12:39:00 AM
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
today he bring me out.. for celebrate my bday in advance~ wasn't like last time anymore.. we argue more than anything... he not that thoughtful anymore... All he do is himself~ early in the moring he came.. then we bring kaka to Simei shopping~ sepdn abt $50 on her again.. planning to get a cage for her $160.50... i spend $138 on Ettusai and got a free laguage (dunno if i spell correctly anot) already KO liao whole day haven slp... + drinking madly~ back to story~ Then we went to restock body lotion etc... and went home... @ night went to collect my mango vodka! Then had my dinner with mom, jie, yan, him & uncle.. @ the kopi tiam.. famous in crab~ cos i got a carving to eat~ But was kinda disappointed~ gonna drink soon~ tml going market help mom with buying steamboat stuff... wanted invite css that grp of friends but all was like unable to make it~ then nvm lor i eat alone with ma they all~ i missed nee! U r missed out with those dinner~ Missed those days we steamboat together and talk abt our trouble~ tml i get more photo 4 euu to see hor?~
--Dumdum wants to live in her fairytales, FOREVER --
6/03/2008 01:09:00 AM
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Finally the day has come~ went for ludi's bday party... wasn;t the way i wanted to b~ But worst... Erm i seldom talk 2 anyone~ dunno why i feel weird~ Sometime i thinks is better to b friends... and hide the feelings inside~ End of the story, we both didn't even talk 2 each other~ I tot we will talk~ behaved how we used to be... was bored over there~ ah~
--Dumdum wants to live in her fairytales, FOREVER --
SEE! SHE LOVE ME MORE THAN ANYONE!! When i'm down she's there drying my tears~
Her slping habit~ She nids my slipper to b her pillow and day time my slipper become 1 of her fav toy! T-T
He & kaka! (he also loved kaka alot.. infact he pamer her more than me *now*)
While she sleeping
Sleepy Kaka!
Aren't i cute? if i do LOVE ME MORE! And now she's becoming more beautiful~ i Love her beautiful eyes~
2 naughty girls takeing photo!
She looked like a bunny~
Both of their cards~
Monkey's card!
Iron's card~
The slipper Tracy brought for my xmas present.. Now i open up and use it!
Apple & Kaka! (Kaka's is jealousing of apple! ) Then she turned very naughty for that day~
