until today i haven format my pc.. so sorry ah! no photo to see at the moment.. when i format with my photoshop in my pc i will update those phot i took in hk! simply love it~ hmm~ 26 aug 2008 something very sad happened!! my goldie died... Nana is dead~ sob! i dun wan my mom to b upset cos of me... so i din cry~ hehe~ Me and him, manage to improve alittle... hope everything faster end.. and let us get back to where we r.. the loving couple again~ well i'll update some other time~ tata~ 8/30/2008 01:51:00 AM

20 aug - went to kbox with jie... celebrated her bday... erm... we sang so crazily... until i sore throat and no voice! Then~ fall sick!

23 Aug - met ting, rong & qing for dinner and dessert! hmm~ watched firework.. in Rong's car! hmm~ Me and him?? will there b miracles? If there is I wish this time we wont miss chance again...Hope we r able to hold each other tightly like before~ but i still feel insecure? am i over sensitive? i will work hard for us.. i will giv the last try... do wad i can and use up all my strength! I wish we will b the same as b4.. Hope we can over come this obstacle! Work hard to get the old me... u too ok?

24 Aug - Sick like a dead person.. still went to work with my mei... she cover me alot! THANKS NEE! MUACKkk! Then ta bao mee siam for Qing! Really happy he came find me even just a while nia... i'm contented~ hmm after ahwile he went for dinner with family~ And i went to ZzZ~

Later~ going out with mei~ gonna restock food and see doctor!! i sick till shivering, heart pain and strengthless! Anyway when i format my pc and got photoshop again then update those photo we took @ hk! so stay tune... tot i seldom update le.. cos mei mei is back le dun really need to update lo! 8/25/2008 07:05:00 AM

i think i've pissed him off.... cos i keep drinking recently... and i realise i sms wrong person to him.... u know~ that day he came the way he hugged me is not the same as b4... is like there's some 1 else in his heart than me... he hugged kaka longer than me... i really wish to go crusie with him... i really do... i really wish to tell him... dun go club/pub... stop drinking & smoking too~ cos i care as much as he does... i knew that his heart has contain another person or mayb i'm no longer live in his heart... like he said b4 he has given up... and now he came to me is wan me to stop torturing myself! if that's the case then i rather continue.... if this time he dun stop me from torture myself, i able to walk to where i wanna go~ i'm not taking death to treaten him! or wad... I ever told u... you r my everything, i wish u will b the last and the only guy live within me.. my energy, my pillar... without you... everything seems so meaningless and incomplete to me... cos having u with me is already part of my life! i also dunno why... i'm this stuborn for not setting you free... i dun wanna force u... i wan ur smile on ur face... if ur wan me back is cos dun wan me to hurts myself than i'll say forget it... i wan the reason of patching is cos u love me nth more that that! I'll take ur slience as dun love.. Since u always ignore my words from my heart and nv gave me a ans... is like trying to run and avoid.... since this blog is for you and u not reading i shall keep all the words for u here... until 1 day, u turn back... if i'm not with u anymore but here's my words that shows my shows love for u .... if i am around i'll still waiting for u! As long as i'm breathing, i will keep on loving u... till the end of my last breath~ 8/20/2008 01:58:00 PM

His 22nd Birthday present from me!(above)

I know i'm childish but i really love these soft toys.. From someone special!

Muhahaha!! From Mom's Big fat big!

Who's hand is this? Of cos is him!

8/06/2008 05:18:00 PM

today he came... no matter he's here or not, everything is not the same anymore especially the feeling... he's here but somehow i feel that his heart is not.... I was wondering who could that be? who keep on sms with him... But sometime shd pretend dunno anything~ i dun hav to right to ask much also~ Also can know or find some ans from his action or body langauge~ or am i asking too much? will there be miracles on us? or i shd let fate decide~ No matter how much i wish he's the 1.. if i'm not the 1 who fate to b with him till the end... no pts forcing? i know sometime not only hav to depends on fate... Nee faster come sg~ i need some 1 drink with me... when next time we free we go pub tgt ley~so many things i wanna do... make my eyebrown,make my teeth... dye & reborn my hair~ etc etc etc... I MUST find back the CONFIDENT! and get myself back! Recently i'm really drinking back~... 8/02/2008 10:03:00 PM