Another bye bye! i think this is the end baa~ i've made up my mind too~ i'm far too unreasonable for him~ my ichy hands found somethings to hurts myself! It mayb misunderstanding but he doesn't wans to explain... well~ Mayb a gd things so we can really stop everything and b friend? when will i get my trust, faith & confident in myself again? and search for the secure? i guess i hav to settle down by myself! use my heart to feel not my eyes to see... trust my instinct! when i know wad i wanna do next! i'll move on~ 12/31/2008 09:41:00 PM

i'm drunk! Woot! i love being drunk cos i speak everything i hav on mind... Jin wasn't here whenever i'm drunk, Jin always listen to my rubbish and crying.. Today he's unable to cheer me up!~ But there's a guy keep asking me out at this time... he said he's driving blah blah blah.. so i told him wasn't the right time as i was half drunk, emotional and wad's the time now! He said he could come to my house hahha! SORRY!!! He's really not looking for me~ not returning calls or sms me =( NVM i'll sure able to stand up on my own! 12/31/2008 03:50:00 AM

i hate it! i'm already so unhappy @ work.. leen did made me laughed by making monkey faces! When i came home, the stupid one is showing off her black face... mom keep complaint abt kaka's hair is dropping all over the place... I HATE THIS! FINE I'LL GET KAKA OFF OUR HOUSE THEN! AND I WILL STAY OUT OF THIS STUPID HOUSE!! when i wake up, i'm going out till late night! Roaming around singapore if i'm alone or not it doesn't matter! i SWEAR i'm not gonna come home early or dinner ANY MORE!! Even if i wanna rest more i'd lock myself & kaka in my room!

Another idiot who is making me upset.. he dun reply me of WHY HE'S NOT PICKING UP OR RETURN MY CALL? he'd just ignore that qns! Or did i hit on the right answer? u was with someone else... NO MATTER HOW I CHANGE WE'LL NV B TOGETHER COS UR HEART HAS BEEN REPLACED BY SOME OTHER GIRLS!! nor look for me, smsed me~~ FINE! I'LL FUCK OFF!!

It's meaningless to live on.. REALLY!! i hate this life!!

This new year i'm alone but nvm i got new friends may b going to their party!
I'm still thinking of how shd i send 7 jan to 9 jan! Cos i've already let my mom knows he's bringing me to cruise.. But now! she'd say something again~ Mayb going friends house to stay over or go sentosa and hide myself there or ~ i dunno still planing! 12/30/2008 10:45:00 PM

Today Noga was there again! Weee! Noga, Leen and i chatted while we work~ We chatted till i cried and Noga ran all the way towards me and hug! 1st time a friend hug me so tightly and let me cry~ Somehow it was embarrass! After work went to hav dinner with Evangeline... Chatted alot.. I love this job is cos i found some friends while working! =D And they r superb nice!!! simply love my new friends...

He's treating me so cold.. Not returning my calls!~
Jin going Hk i'm gonna left alone for some time =(
When having cold war or problems i dunno who to turn to if Jin is not in SG.. T.T
Nobody will b there to console me/ cheer me up/ make me laugh!

Here's a very nice song!

Don't hang up, can't we talk
So confused it's like I'm lost
What went wrong, what made you go
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me I'm unchangable
When did we fall apart
Or did you lie from the start
When you said, it's only you
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we were unbreakable

[chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

[verse 2]
I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
We were still untouchable

[chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

[bridge]
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now
Because we're much better altogether

[chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
made me unbeautiful 12/29/2008 10:12:00 PM

dunno what shit i step on this few days! This morning, he smsed some sweet msg.. But somehow i feel hurt when i saw those msges! I dun even know wad to reply! Late for work again so have to take taxi down again! Work till 6pm.. In between my working hrs, Jin came to accompany me! Else i would bored to death! Then Noga came for salad! I love her! she's the best customer i've ever got! 3 of us having nice chat there! After that Jin helped me with the closing so i treated Jin dinner for many reason! Example: he'd treat me when i'm broke, be there when i meet any problems, accompany me when i'm working alone (so that i can go toilet)... Sorry that i'm always making you vomit blood!! After the dinner, he accompany me for shopping spree! I've spend about $200 on my sleepwear @ cotton on, slipper and brought some other stuff from Daiso! After shopping, he send me home! But still got to shop for my chinese new year clothes, shoes & bag(u shd know who i wish to accompany me for shopping..) When i reached home, gave him a call as i received a miss call from him earlier! He's sweet but i guess might b some sweet talk again~ so that i wont b angry/upset... After all i really do feel better~ Better than he left me alone~ Soon after we hang up, i had some arguement with jie again! Geez~

i guess i hav to kick the habit of spending alot money when i'm feeling down! I hate my noisy family! i rather lock myself at a corner!!

*He's sweet to me today! Is it because he feel guilty? Or he really wanna treat me better... Just wanna treat me as his gf than a normal friend? i dunno somehow i'm confused!! i wish to heard the ans from him face to face!!~ AWW!~ my head gonna burst soon!!! I guess he'd b unhappy with me for making him........................... 12/28/2008 10:51:00 PM

i will withdraw..... i'm willing to withdraw if she the one he love than me~ i will leave quietly without any complaint! i wont fight!! i won't make u stand inbetween us like a sandwich~ If she really could give u happiness, i'm contented!! Dun worry abt me, i'll take care of myself... i'll go back to the life where i used to be.. If that's the case dun stop me no matter wad i did to myself... Anyway with me, i can't give u anything not even a smile~ I'm just useless~ Just like Jin is my Angel who always look after me in the dark.. And i'll b ur angel, make sure u get ur smile & happiness~~ i need time to calm down, and think wad shd i do!~ In the end, i still unable to settle down with him.. Still unable to fulfill my dream! I tried my very best to change to the girl he used to love.. Somehow, it's pointless cos he no longer love that girl too!

*Regrets for not cherish those time he always come down to my work place and fetch me home, pamper me! Is something he wont do now~ Not to my work place or date me out!! Always i'm the one who asking him out!
*Heart is breaking into million pieces again! But, i'm someone who will keep on standing no matter how many times i've fall.. i just need time to heal.... When i'm rdy to stand and run again, i'm rdy for the next fall~~ i'll pick myself up this time! 12/27/2008 08:47:00 PM

Fri 26 Dec 2008:

My 2008 Xmas Presents:

From Him!

From Joan!

From Tracy!

12/27/2008 03:58:00 AM

Yan's birthday gift for her classmate

The xmas cards!

Hand draw Bookmark for the xmas card!

The Blink blink series bookmark!

The special series for my special friends!

Noga, Rong, Ting, Joanne, Tracy, Miko, Nicole,

Daddy Franics, Zx, Ludi , Evangeline

2008 Shiori Xmas design 1

2008 Shiori Xmas design 2

2008 Shiori Xmas design 3 (Specially for Xiang & Zx)

2008 Shiori Xmas design (special)

2008 Shiori Xmas design 4 (Specially for Tracy & Joan)

The [NiA] series!!

There's more photo coming up... Stay on tune!

12/23/2008 10:10:00 PM

When i was on my way to work, he called... then i received a sms from hom saying he will come find me after my work... i told myself not to look too much on it.. i know how it will end up... i work and work when the time is moving towards 6pm, my heart is breaking and aching! Why? i knew the outcome but why am i still having those feelings? why am i still awaiting for something is impossible? why do i wanna hurts myself?

why he always enjoying makeing me disappointed after another? Why always wanna made me cried in the public? why am i always that stupid awaiting for wad he said/promise when i already know it's impossible? Why wanna treat me like a garbage? Call me as u like, find me as you please, dump me as you happy?

After everything, even i insist of meeting him, he still came to my house! And gave me a big surprise!! When i get out of my door step, near the stairs, i saw a big present.. i tot who would left a big present here? i still think it might b a bomb or wad! Then he appeared gave me a shock! We bring the big present down to the void deck and opened it... It's the sylvania house and the bed! I'm sure it's very costy! Somehow heartache for his hard earn money! Shd ask him get me the ipod instead of this!~ But he's just fulfilling one of my wishes! Thx baby!! i love it no matter wad! Wad matters most is ur heart!! Then we bring the big present back to my house and get him his present! He opened his present while on our way to Mac... Had dinner and chatted with him! before he escort me home~ 12/22/2008 07:42:00 PM

Sun 21 Dec 08:
Slp till afternoon.. after i get my ass up from my bed, start working again... Rushing those special xmas card! dunno why i feel so pissed off, upset, emo! i wanna drink again! Everytime i said i wanna drink, end up think of he might get angry, i didn't drink but went to bed!
This few days, i'm the 1 keep looking for him! He's too busy for me! He's also sick~ And so, i decided not to interupt wadever things he's busy with~ No matter is with friends, work or rest! I'm not gonna call him!! Until he think of me, rmb me, eventually he will look for me~ if not......... i dunno too~
My blog getting wordy nowadays i shd get some photo/pic soon~

WTF i'm sick again!! Fever, flu and sore throat!! stop getting sick!! If wan let me collaps and leave this place i'll feel much much much better!

Sat 20 Dec 08:
Late for work... alone there was so boring! got nothing to do... sold less than 10 salads~ hahaha!! In the middle of work received his call and know that xmas i won't b able to celebrate with him when i prepare alot surprise for him! Another disappointment! I was too upset till i cried while working~ Then when he called back again i'm dunno if i shd pick up anot.. after missing the 1st call, the 2nd call i still pick up!He asked me things abt the cruise! Hopefully on the 7 jan we really can go~ If not, i'm happy for nothing again~! Hope wont get any disappointment or shatter wish again~ Anyway he know i wasn't happy and asked me what happened..
In the night, went to jie's house for steamboat as it was yan's birthday! Zx, Shane & jacky is there tooo~ 12/21/2008 10:25:00 PM

tired! superb tired!! i've work from morning 9.30 till now then finish half of my stuff! Due to the xmas card, i've rushed for 2 days without resting well~ i wanna post my cards here but if i do, there's no surprise! somehow i wish my hard work can melts someone who mean alot to me... and able to give my friends my sincer & warmth! Giving back a smile by looking at the card would b the best gift for my xmas! As always i wish for on xmas! His smile and everyone of my friends smile!~ i shall post the drawing i did tml! 12/19/2008 03:48:00 AM

i'm superb tired yet i couldnlt get myself to rest! i dunno why always sleeping late when i hav to get up very early in the morning! i missed him! until i dunno wad i'm thinking~ Thinking abt the past.. thinking abt him and her! Funny things is i dunno who is the her!! i just know there's another girl who appeared and entered his heart! Did replace me anot i dun dare to think abt! URG! why am i always thinking abt all these rubbish? i wanna go cruise with him~ but it's 1.1k for 3days 2 nights~ i feel insecure without him by my side!! 12/18/2008 01:25:00 AM

Mon 15 Dec 08:
Supposed to go to work for 3 hrs in the end still work long hrs! i told her so 5 times today i'm working 3hrs from 12pm ~ 3pm.... WTF she called me in the morning with her pissed off voice simply freak me off!! No choice cos she got a philippine worker who work 9 hrs with 1k a mth also able to work like me that's why she treat me bad nowadays! Got so many complaint abt her but lazy to list! Was so angry about her larrr! basket made me work ot without paying!!! PUI!! i reached home abt 10.30pm lo so *&*(@&*(&@) larrr! she still dare to ask me go work at 9am to 6pm! that 1 hr my break time yet still got to work for her without paying me! Nvm endure 12 more days! THEN SHE'LL DIE!! I'M GONNA COMPLAINTS TO MOM AND WDA!!! SELFISH BITCH!!!!!

ytd night went to the midnight curry to had our supper! Where salt used to bring me for supper! This aunty who is so call salt's god mother! Came and serve us.. when she saw me straight away attitude us! WTF! Nvm, we order a green tea... inbetween the food, i pour my green tea into the cup and saw some green sticky stuff come out from the can! My baby asked me not to drink and change a new one.. the guy took in and talked with the aunty, and bring back the same green tea and told us that is the green tea leaf! WAD A LAUGHING STOCK! 1st time i drink poka green tea with the tea leaf sia! my baby was so angry even wanted ask the guy to drink it! wahahah! we shd say is ok and took the photo sia! but the guy took a new can of change it, my baby ask for chrysanthemum this time, to make sure i dun eat/drink any rubbish stuff.. =D see him getting agitated makes me feel happy! Cos he care abt me!!! 12/16/2008 01:35:00 AM

Sun 14 Dec 08:
Went to work today! Erm~ i dun use to oily working environment anymore =(
Manage to finish my shoes! But not the housework! =(
He didn't reply my sms or find me after he send me home ytd =(
Tired but didn;t able to get more rest =(
i dunno wad to do abt my work =(
i wanna get more money for the things i wanna get for myself~
But it seems so hard! =(

sat 13 Dec 08:
Received a call from him at around 11pm++ whereas i'm still sleeping at that time... he told me he'll come and meet me and bring me out i jump up of my bed! @ 1st we wanted to go Amk to hav KFC.. But he told me that he actually wanna go ms.. So we head forward to Ms... Guess wad he got for me? A SUPER BIG STITCH!! We had our KFC after getting that big stitch~ Then we went to Suntec see how len's doing over there alone.. After seeing that she's able to cope with the work, we went off! To the arcade again! This time he got another stitch for me.. i told get 1 for yan as her birthday coming! he really got it Mickey! He's superb lucky!!! As for me, i got 2 small stitch plushie keychain! After everything, we head back to amk! Went to popular for some shopping~ i've spend $50.40 on my art stuffs again! T.T Then he send me home!

Thanks for everything u've done! It really melts me... Another of my sweet memories after we get tgt! Hope there's more and more sweet memories.. And hope we'r able stronger our relationship/love!
*He said he wanna bring me to cruise on Jan09! I hope he really mean it! Can't wait for that day~* 12/14/2008 08:43:00 PM



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