Food and Beverage....

5/30/2009 05:47:00 PM

i'm at work now but simply too bored~
Cos got nth to do other shelving....
So now i'll just slack out and blog =p

Ytd went to hav dinner with Jun & boon
@ the same place again~
Jun treat us dinner XD
Boon wasn't in mood~
Went home i didn't touch my alcohol and went to slp~
Cos i've been drinking for 2 days till my throat so painful~
And hav some cough~
Thus i went to slp after my awhile of l4d

I'm gonna broke soon~
Crabtree
SKII
PetsLover
CPU
Itouch
Camera
LV
Khiel's

AWWWWW~ in my buylist now~ 5/29/2009 02:57:00 PM

Photos~
5/28/2009 01:12:00 AM

After work met Jun & Boon TPY for dinner~
Chatted for long time~
HAHAHA~ nice slacking =x
simply love it~~

Just received a call from him~
And i know the ans that i wont b able to go out or catch up with him~
on my birthday week~ sob!
I schedule 2 jun just for him~
But also couldn't make it....
He on leave from 1st to 6th of jun~
And wanted go for vacation...
But it's too sudden and i'm broke!
Hardly for me to schedule too~
So i guess he'll b going with his friends or ........

WHy do i feels so terrible?!
WHy do i feels that my heart is torning apart?!
WHy my tears just dun listen to me?!
Why why why i feel this way?!
This feeling simply sucks to core!!!
Sy Sy pls wake up~
Wake up from this miserable dreams~
why am i still hoping? when i'm not the 1 he wants me to wait for him?!

And i know that he wasn't reading this blog anymore~
Is either he got sick of it or simply too busy with life!
When he called he tot i called him ytd but i was the day b4 ytd~

H.E.A.R.T.B.R.O.K.E.N.A.G.A.I.N~ T.T
D.U.M.D.U.M.H.E.A.R.T.I.S.D.E.A.D!!!!! 5/26/2009 11:38:00 PM

today works was just fine~
already adapt it~
work till end of this week holidays!!!
Dun need go back work but some days i still need go back only~
Well, whole day sms-ing with Jun haha~
having fun scaring him, jokking with him, chatting with him XD
Hope this friend WILL NOT FADE~
cos right now he's the ONLY friend i really cherish alot alot alot~
It's something simply more than words and action can be done~

Well, last night i called him but he didn't pick up~
I tot he'll return call or @ lease a sms for me
But in the end~ He's still MiA!!!
Next week my birthday~
I surpose there's wont b any chance meeting him, watching movie with him and stuff le ba~
I dun think he even rmb it~ 5/26/2009 12:42:00 AM

well, i didn't ran away from home on friday night~
Cos i dunno where to go~

i dunno why i really missed him alot alot~
but i got no news from me~
Abit worried abit sad~
Or mayb he already got someone to love and care~
Someone that needs him more than me~
i dunno.... i dun wanna know either~
All i know is i love him and miss him more than anything~
Yet it's useless~
i also can't b that selfish to tie him up~
He got his own thinking and freedom to do things he wans~
Even the msg *emroftiaw* is not meant for me,
i'll still waiting~ Always and forever~

And right now i hav something i always wanted~
That's is a pure friendship.. Having a few friends who really love and care for me~
And~ i wish it'll last forever!
I'll work hard! i believe i can do it~
Can't wait to hav another outing with them XD

A song wanna dedicate to him again~
i dunno if u still do read my blog but just wanna let u know u've nv been forgotten

I can't sleep
everything I ever knew
is a lie without you
I can't breathe
when my heart is broke in two
there's no beat, without you
You're not gone, but you're not here
instead that's the way it seems tonight
If we could try to end these wars
I know that we can make it right
Cause baby...

*Chorus:
I don't wanna fight no more
I forgot what we were fighting for
& this loneliness that's in my heart
wont let me be apart from you
I don't want to have to try
Girl to live without you in my life
so I'm hoping we can start tonight
cause I don't wanna fight
NO MORE...

How can I live
When everything that I adore
And everything I'm living for
Girl it's in you I can't dream

Sleepless nights have got me bad
The only dream I ever had
Is being with you I know that we can make it right
It's gonna take a little time
Lets not leave ourselves with no way out
Lets not cross that line

Chorus

Remember that I made a vow that I wouldnever let you goI mean it then I mean it now and Iwant to tell you so

Chorus x2

it's a lie without you Without you........ 5/24/2009 03:02:00 AM

mayb i'm always thr fortune ones~
who nv suffered enough!
Who dunno how hard earning money could be
And i'm always complaining and fussy~

1st day of works makes me feel like running away from it~
know wonder the previous girl ran away
and avoid their calls and everything!
cos is not what u think that easy~

They'll squeeze u till ur last drip of blood~
i hate to face those students who always look and laugh at me~
Or make fun of me as i dunno anythings~
I simply find that i'm working in kindergarden~
At the 1st place i'm not kin in this job is cos my mom kept pestering me~
I tried and find it really sucks but no way out~
This time i wont complaint~
i'll endure everything and finish up the 1yr~

Trying cover up~ i dun wanna give mom know anything
so ppl who knows anything pls zip up ur mouth!

why do i feel like hurting/abuse myself again?!
that feeling is back to make myself feels pain~
see my blood splash on my face~
Got the urge to kill myself....
why? am i sick?!
where u? when i really need u?
i wanna hear ur voice, ur hug!
and ur touch~
cos u'r the only person who can clam me down and stop my waterfall~
Make me slp~
tml~ i wont b picking up calls!
And i wont b coming till morning~
And i'll be alone! cos i dun wanna drag down anyone who accompany me~ 5/21/2009 09:24:00 PM

Had fun today~
My close friends is here except for Tracy, JOanne, miko and clemmy!

Ppl who came:
Nicole, Jun, Boon, Duck, yun, Phoenix
Thanks for coming~
and u guys dun own me anything~
Coming for the steamboat is the best gift~
Really!!
Saw boon so happy~ i'm happy too~
But jun like so sian~
Duck was in the rush~
Poor yun eat so little gtg liao!
phoenix came and eat awhile and left
Next time i got off we chill again!

thanks Nee, Jie and MOMMY!!
for helping me!! Really appreciate it alot~
Lurve~

The only person i wish to b here was him X(
i was half drunk~ =D

Tml my first day of wor... it's so far T.T
i wish everyday there's some one would fetch me to work
and pick me back from work =(
i'm just day dreaming~
well gd luck to me and buck up!!!
For the sake of money, beauty and things i wanna get =D 5/20/2009 11:53:00 PM

I am a spare! i'm always a replacement of others~
i realise it~ i can never fight for myself...
Everyone said is cos i lack of confident~

The thing is i dun wish or want ppl around me to be in difficult positions so i choose to shut up!

Indeed i'm a ugly girl!
Superb ugly! In inner or outer IS STILL UGLY!
I'm greedy, jealousy, backstabber, all ugly stuff have in me!! that i dun even know who i am!
I'm wearing mask all the while... different place, different people i'll put on different mask!
I feel that i'm so scary!
SCARY!
And now it's time for me to return to my cold and dark dungeon..
i shall stop bothering anyone~ Especially him!
I'm trying hard to forget everything, erase memories that belongs to us~
And not to think, love and miss Euu!
It seems so hard! And i always failed but i'll continue to endure!
It's my karma now i guess!
I shall face it! If i can choose i'll choose to die tml!
I'm always wish to die after my birthday~
Or to hav him!
But it nv come true~
When i'm with him i always gave my birthday wishes to him!
Always wish he'd receive good, sweet, happy stuff from heaven~

I'M JUST A JINX!!!
so just stay away from me T.T 5/19/2009 02:55:00 AM

Here to blog again~

On sunday, after work i went to my sis house~
Chill out with duck, yun and my sis~
i was dead drunk again
did alot nonsense which i dunno T.T
Another laughing stock liao lo!

Then i Ko till evening still hangover!
everywhere so pain...
Bruise everywhere!
5/18/2009 02:59:00 PM

when i look into your eyes
i know you tell me lies
It's never gonna be the same again
You will always make me cry
You started to pass me by
It's never gonna be the same again

Hey you give me one more try
Hey you give me one more try
L.O.V.E

woo woh~ woo woh~ yeah..

when i look into your eyes
i know you tell me lies
It's never gonna be the same again
You will always make me cry
But time is passing by
It's never gonna be the same again

Look into your eyes
It's never gonna be the same again without you
want to free my heart
Is's never gonna be the same again without you

be be be be yeah, be be be be yeah
Be the same again

Love, love is not a game
Love, love a neverending flame
Playing around with love and trust
Now we speak I'll pass the test
L.O.V.E
Come on girl don't let it be
Listen to me and open your mind
I'm the one, the one of a kind
Check this check that i come correct
No matter gitl i will connect
Squeeze and hold me tight tonight
Squeeze and hold me that's right
Stay with me on and on
stay with me all night long
baby baby don't you cry
Please, please give me one more try

when i look into your eyes
i know you tell me lies
It's never gonna be the same again
You will always make me cry
But time is passing by
It's never gonna be the same again

Look into your eyes
It's never gonna be the same again without you
want to free my heart
Is's never gonna be the same again without you

hey you gimme one more try,
hey girl ain't gonna lie
Things that i did, things that i never said
Believe me, didn't mean it bad
I've been away for a real long time
I can't get you outta my mind
Hold me tight and don't let go
Here's the real love come let it flow
love, love it's sure just love
I broke your heart and went away
Love, love I'm not a flirt
But there's something more i got to say
H.O.P.E
I need love come set me free
Give me one chance don't walk on by
when i look deep into your eyes 5/17/2009 05:36:00 PM

i'm tired of words~
so i wont blog much for the past 3 days~

Basically, had loads of fun with jun in l4d~
he's a very caring friend i can say =D
A new buddy added into my life~
Hmm~ ytd supposed to go sentosa with ** but was cancelled~
At night went to meet vin, zx, sean for dinner and chilled out~
Camera is with jie, i'll upload photo when i got back my camera!

Sorry Vin u came sg but we got no where to bring u to~ And sg stuff is so expensive.. Lastly thanks for the treats =D

Drank alot ytd! At the pub i didn't drink much but when i get home,
i continue with my drinking
and played l4d with jun till 5am~ then went for work!
i break down again... Luckily no one sees or hears~
i'm still trying hard to look on the bright side...~
it has been sometime i haven been this drunk and depressed~ 5/17/2009 05:03:00 PM

WAhahahah!
i found a job... will b working @ Pioneer JC!
Work in libuary!
It's boring but at lease i dun need wash plates and svr customers~
Hmmm~
It's also a gov so i guess shdn't b any problem ba!

The pay not bad too!
Then i can buy my LV and upgrade my PC!
Hopefully i'll know how 2 save money!

My plans:
1st two mths, money goes to bank and piggy bag!
3rd mth, save up for a nv full LV bag for somebody HOPEFULLY I CAN MAKE IT ON TIME =x
Then the rest i'll save for upgrading my pc!
And continue saving for next yr bday presents!

Well,
i've alot break out due to slping very late!
I gotta turn back my slping time soon!
But shdn't b any problem cos i got cough syrup!
i think i'm having fever! My face red like baboon ass!
And freaking hot!

Anyway i gotta announce, June chalet or BBQ cancelled due to my work!
Sorry everyone =X
i'll miss playing with my buddy, especially JUN!
But i'll meet u guys up for dinner if possible!

Good Night! =D 5/15/2009 03:34:00 AM

i dunno if i shd save up my money for the LV wallet or get the mouse i wanted 1st~
I wanna get the wallet on my bday itself!
And aim for the bag soon after i start work =/

My monster is sick~
And i did something bad to her when she's unwell!!
she pee on the floor and it's my fault that i didn't put any newspaper for her~
After cleaning, i flare up and throw trumpet on her~
Beat her 3 times hard enough even feels my hand is painful!
After beating her! I feels so heartache!
Actually i wanted do something to let someone know!
she shd also help me clean her pee & poo!
But to think back, she helped me alot today...
Like bath for my monster, feed her....
i nv/rarely throw temper on my baby~
she's so impt that~ i loved and cherish her alot!
Mayb i didn't =S
but why i did this to her when she's feeling so unwell?!
Whenever my sis scolded or beat her my face will turn black!
Is like asking them to stay away from her!
But why the hell i did that to her!

Sorry baby!

Pls be strong ok?! dun fall sick! u gotta stay with me till u r old enough to leave me~
now u only 1 yr old... u're still a baby that need my love and care!
If possible i wish we'll die tgt!!
10yrs time.. i'm 33yrs old!
Old enough to leave this world,
experience enough of life!
Even if places i haven been to, is ok!
Cos i have you with me~
Cos~ u r the only one who wont angry on me, nasty to me, even i'm so mean and bad towards you, u'll always love me
You'r such a obedient monster of mine!
I'm really afraid to face the day of u leaving me!

5/13/2009 04:09:00 AM

So bored...... I'm really lost!
i dunno what to do~
Luckily i got a job interview might able work soon =D
Money money money $.$
Then can buy alot things~

There's a bugger keep pestering me! LOL!
He's once asked me to b his gf! LMAO!
He's afew yrs younger than me~
and i rejected him dunno how many times.
recently,
he msned me~
Asked me to b his gf again
and i rejected and said i enjoy my singlehood~ infact i'm not!
he said why not we try to be tgt for a mth? LOL!! wad a joke!
I replied nah~
He replied how abt a week? OMG!!! i think he's in market picking vegetable =x
And even asked me out on weekends~
I find excuses to push away!!

Actually,
i hate to b single
cos i'll still miss somebody eventually~
Mayb if we didn't start from the begining,
i wont b hating to b alone!
He break the spell for me!!
And now i've froze my heart for that somebody!
Even the ans will not b what i want,
is fine with me!
I just wanna him to love in my heart forever!
So nobody melt my heart pls!

I've tried ways to hate him so,
i wont miss him that much or love him so crazily
But it always failed!

融化了~
冰淇淋溶化了之後
就算你把它擺在冰箱裡面
再冰凍一次
也已經走樣了... 5/12/2009 02:41:00 AM

something really pissed me off~
Hai~ i know jun wasn't in his day too!
Things r getting bad to worst?!

i dun wanna make my friends to be in difficult positions!
And i know somehow cos of me!
Jun is in difficult positions!
no matter is in team or game,
if i'm not playing anymore might b better 4 him and them!

Hmm~ i shd start playing less to stop for some time!
i guess go work is the best ways to hide myself!~
Then disappear again from everything!
so he and everyone can go back to where they is...
happily gaming without worries or big burden!

i not just wanting mattias to be happy...
but to all my friends and family..
as long as everyone i loved, iwanthemtobhappy!
i dun mind i'm the 1 suffering
i'm used it anyway~
i'm alone from the very start!
it's time to return all my happy times of friendship i guess!
The time is up!

I'm easily give up!
Cos i'm afraid of my friends/family suffered
i dun care abt the ans!
as long as can lighten then load i'm happy enough! 5/10/2009 07:37:00 PM

i dunno why i'm so emo and feel like screaming and crying out!
AWW! is like killing me~
mayb i'm tired of trying hard to make myself happy~
yet keep getting the same result!

And recently is like everyone is snatching Jun to join them!
Cos We r close buddy... wanna him to join gotta ask me along~
i feels that i'm a BIG burden to jun!
I just wanna hav fun game~
But now, so many things pop up!

i really lost and dunno what to do!
I guess i'd do the same~
run and hide!
till everything is fine, i'll show myself again!

Sorry for everything!
i think Jun thinks too much for us as in boon, clemmy and myself!
neglected himself?! i wan my friends to be happy!
Jun are you happy? dun force urself ok?
Just follow ur heart~~

I missed him!
Really missed him so badly again!
But miss him also can't do anything
cos he's not mine!
and i'm not his girl anymore!
i missed those days when i'm in pain like this,
he's always here for me,
look after me, take care of me,
pamper me...... feels the pain for me!! 5/10/2009 03:54:00 AM

KOed at work & on bed!
i really can't stand the pain~~
it's freaking painful~ If only girls dun need suffered from all these~
WTH! i'm gonna pain to death!!!

until noe he haven give mr a ans~
and it's already not impt anymore!
cos i'm not going~
Sorry Rong and Ting i'll find someday ask u all out for dinner~

He's playing MiA again =S
sigh~
why?!
wad happened again?!
wad i did again?
or said anything wrong?

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my bad day! 5/09/2009 09:22:00 PM

It's my MOMMIE birthday! Happy Birthday mommie!
WE LOVE EUUUU!

Afternoon went jie's house with duck and yun~
Chilled in the afternoon sia!
but me and jie shared 1 cup only XD
At night we went for dinner @ Jumbo with the lucky star!
Thx uncle for the treats~

Brought that present and the 3 of us are broke!
next time we'll treat back uncle!!!
somehow still hope she'd love it!

5/09/2009 03:29:00 AM

Went orchard Lv shop for my mom's bday and mother's day present!
Today will b photo day =D


5/08/2009 02:28:00 AM