Okay since i have nothing to do today,
i shall write a LONG blog =D
of my life right now and how i feels.

Past 2 days i've been paid while reading manga online =D
cos the JC 2 finished their exams now JC 1 having their exams.
So basically there nth to do right now...
Shelves are tidy!
Early in the morning, reached my desk.
Start packing news paper after that, just sat there and do my stuff till 5.15pm.
Manage to finish chasing my Claymore manga.
Now waiting for next chapter..
Getting more exciting!!!

Read my cousin blog. Somhow really jealous and envy of her.
Thought she is younger than me. But she and her bf are so loving and stable. they have been tgt for 14months, i can say that, their r/s is strong enough to overcome any obstacle. A boyfriend who will tc of her mom. A boyfriend who will love, pamper, take care, wait for her.
Thinking back of myself..OLD enough yet, Still stuck in the middle of my life. If only me & him still tgt, what will we be right now?
To be frank, now i still got no trust and confident in r/s.
i'm a greedy girl. no matter how much i gets, it's forever not enough for me.
Wondering why am i like this? why i wont feel contented?
Why am i always jealous and envy others? Why wont i look around me and find out what i hav that others might envy of me?
And i hate myself for this!
If only fairness exist.
However i decided to do something meaning this holiday.
I'll vist spca see if anything i could help.
If possible i wish to sell my designs to raise a fund!

Mayb i should take up night course for my arts.
Cause it's rare to get this kind of job, that i can really make me fall in love with books, doing research while working.
What really matter is, to hav such a nice superviser who will take care of me.
Make sure i wont get bullied by students or teachers.
She's always there to help me.

I'm tired! i wish to throw everything/everybody aside and sleep for a week! 9/30/2009 10:54:00 AM

HMM~ dunno why feels so emotional.
Headache for whole day.
wanted to do some drawing, painting, and finish all the task on my hands..
but i got no inspiration...
No energy to draw or think~
where's all my inspirations?

wanted drink for past few days,
Due to work, i tried to control.
Yesterday night got the craving to drink again,
but was too tired and went to sleep.
to think back, it's have been sometime i haven been contacting Nicole and Miko.
Missed those days in timbre thought i have some nightmare there.
But i really love the atmosphere there.
And KBOX!!! told Tracy, Joan and Nee that we going Kbox some day but always nv get the chance.. Hopefully my december holiday able go kbox with them.

after my cup noodles, took out my vodka and start drinking.
was surfing my facebook when i saw something feels uneasy.
LOL! perhaps i'm thinking too much again?!
dunno why recently have been feeling heartache...

Last night, i had alot bad dreams.
forgotten almost everything except for the last part,
i'm landed in hospital.
Saw my cardiac doctor.
Then jumped up from my bed. 9/26/2009 09:11:00 PM

TO BUY LIST 9/26/2009 02:39:00 AM

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