He smsed me in the middle of night around 3am.

Asking me not to worry about him. and so on.
Just wanna let u know.
I'll still be worrying and care for u~
I really dun wanna lose u.

If i know our story would be like this.
That time i should have choose to b a close friends of urs.
At lease you won't avoid me or keep a distance from me.
We'd still b happy bicker.

U r same impt as my family.
That i wish to protect not hurts.
However i always fail to do so~
only brought u hurts

No matter wad,
i'll still the same always supporting u behine no matter wad u do~ 10/26/2009 12:40:00 PM

i dunno wad happened to him.
Ignoring me again.
but somehow i'm so worried abt him.
Did i hurt him? upset him? Made him feel this way again?
i really didn't mean it! i'm sorry!

Seeing him unhappy, it will also affect me.
i dunno why, perhaps it's already a habit of mine.
It just automatic switch on, whenever he's down or anything happening to him.
Just like when i know he's drinking i would feel like drinking too.

I used to do wad u did to me.
to let him feels the way i am.
But @ times he's in grief, i dunno why it would make me miserable too.
I tried to control my emotion ended up throw trumpet.
i really speechless and dunno wad to do.
Sigh~

I'm sorry! 10/25/2009 11:11:00 AM

I'm outdated.
But i still love this sing, yesterday.
Whenever i hear this song, it reminds me of u and our promises.
All we could now is flash back of our memories. and continue move forward!

Nothing else we could do to save this relationship.
It's our past!
No matter how hard we tried, will still back to where we are.
And part from each other over and over again.
I've waited for years.
Comes to an answer!

I'm ready to let go.
I'm ready to b just a friend of yours.
In future u need me to be there, i'll still be there for you.
As a friend not a lover.
In future if u get marry, i'll still attend you invitation.
And give you all my blessing. So make sure u invite me.
No matter wad, i still hope we'll b able to be gd friends.
And would last.
Cause u r the one i dun wish to lose.
We aren't able to b lover but i wish to continue our friendship.

Pardon me for my willful, unreasonable, demanding, selfishness, stubborn, greedy.
Overall a bad & failure girlfriend of yours>

I would like to announce!
Today will b the day i buried my tears, my love.
Creating our new friendship =D

it's hard but i'll try~
to ease both of our pains. 10/19/2009 03:03:00 PM

Hmm~ Superviser seems like not in good mood.
Perhaps cause of those prelim papers giving her alot of headache.
And she just went to pluck off her tooth ytd.
Still on medication.
Somehow she looks scary today.
Wanted apply half day off for fri also scare to talk to her.
I'm sleepy. And uncomfortable of my clothe
Kinda freak me off.

Todays was a bad day for me. I forget to bring along my ezlink card.
Yet not enough time to rush home and take.
Thus spending much more money today on my transport.
GRRR!

Hopefully tml will b a better day for me and my superviser!
Else i dare not talk to her =( 10/05/2009 03:15:00 PM