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Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Day 5
Today was the 5th day after the incident that almost breaks us apart. That day, everything was really ready to end our 4 years of relationship. Both of us did something for each other, I cooked breakfast for him and he got Mcdonald hotcake for me. I was choked with tears that I barely swallow my food or talk. For the very first time, I feel that the hotcake tastes horrible. Whenever I hear his voice, my heart hurts. He returned my house key and some cards under his name. I've packed his clothes and I keep asking him to keep Kaka company. Because my heart feels terrible and hurts. He decided not to leave and wants to put back his clothes. But, I've already place stuff in his drawers. I'll never forget how he held my hands, tightly yet gentle enough to melt my heart. Even so, it still unable to stop my heart from bleeding, broken, shattered and tears from rolling down from my cheek.

Then I realize that every time that I've fallen from all kind of situation, there's always a lady with a rough yet warm pair of hands that held me up gently. She always makes sure that there's a cushion for me so when I fall there's a cushion to protect me. She has the biggest heart. She never stops loving us, making sure that she would provide the best for us. Regardless where are we and what we did. I know that she will always be there. I used to hate her because I'm the unwanted ones in the family. At times, I find her annoying when it comes to nagging. After many things happened, I've learned to love and I realized I gain much more that I deserve. This special lady has always been an important and special role in my life. Thank you, mom, I love you! Thanks for your embrace, love, and comfort. I will be stronger than before, so don't worry about me.

Before this had happened I had an unhappy day with people I loved, that's my sis. I loved her so much that I really put in all my love. Showered her plenty of love by organizing a birthday surprise. Even I didn't have much money with me,
I still got her a Kate Spade watch all the way from US. That night I was just trying to be funny as usual. But I end up hurting both of us. I can never forget how she points her finger at me saying that "CAN YOU DON'T ADD IN THIS OR THAT IN THE CONVERSATION? IT'S SO UNCOMFORTABLE!" With her action, tone, and words, it hurts me so much, that I could feel my heart bleeding nonstop. I tell myself I should stop being a clown. I shall keep quiet and isolate myself. I guess the best solution is not to get interfere with anything, just stay away.

Regardless what's the obstacles in my life, I shall stay strong and positive.

--Dumdum wants to live in her fairytales, FOREVER --

10/22/2013 09:38:00 PM