17 December 2006
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Today, feeling very tired... Dunno why, this few days my leg feels so painful... feels so heavy.. Today worked until very stressful.. Around 2pm, all noodless were sold out.. Thus i called up dearie told him that i going home soon.. asked him to get off early.. However, he told me that he cant make it again... Always like that.. His reason was his mom dun let as he is sick.. His mom cooked for him... sked him to rest at home dun go out... I feel really sad.. I planned everything on how to take care of u.. wanna cook porriage for you... etc.. But all vanish in vain... Without saying much i hang up.. Feeling really sad & wanted to cry.. I endure.. I dunno wad to do... Feels so miserable & helpless... Since is that case, then u be ur mom's boy then... I wont pester you any further... I will CONTROL myself not to look for you anymore...

("z") Really tired of my life.. So many hills to climb up.. Everytime i climb till half way, i would fall badly... Teach me what to do... ("z")

16 December 2006
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Today, after work, went out with dearie... We didnt like before.. Our R/S getting more and more slient.. We didnt really talked much.. Whenever he talked, or said sorry to me, or asked me wad happened, my heart feels so hurts... He didnt notice that he had break my heart unknowingly... I keep on crying when we was outside.. However i keep endure and endure.. And i knew it! my smile & laughter already fading away... Anyway he was feeling sick.. As he was having fever.. I didnt know wad to do.. But know that he keep trying to warmth me up.. Just that something lossed, hardly get it back until everything was healed...Between Him & Mie, i know something has already gone missing... I dunno wad is it.. Just feeling hurts whenever he talks, hugged or kissed me.. Having a feeling that we wont last long... Aiya.. I dunno lar.. However, when he sent me home, i asked him take my medicine for cough.. and put a cooling pad on his head so to make his temperature down alittle.. Asked him not to meet me the next day.. But he insist.. But kinda happy that he said that... However, we brought alot of things.. I got my second payment.. Around $270.. Signed Kinokuniya card end up those discount are not for stationary sob! *Regreted* Brought 9 Copiic Marker But one of the pink RV34 i already have.. SOB! Wasted my $6. Spent $75.50 at kinokuniya... He brought a manet board which i wanna make it as a photo frame and a mini stitch memo pad for me..

("v") What will happen to Panda & Piggy? I dunno! I also dun wish anything will happen to us... Cause i care, i cherish but you? ("v")

15 December 2006
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Today, got disturb by Yan. After that i couldn't carry on sleep anymore... Thus i get up, played AuditionSea followed by watch anime NANA!! I'm Falling for Nobu.. OMG! This Episode 30, Showed how happy Nana is being with Nobu. They so lovely dovey man.. However the ending was so heartbreak.. Nana was pregnant.. From further info, the baby is Takumi's child... Hope to see next episode asap.. What will happen?? I more and more addited to Nana...

("v") Hope Nobu & Nana will be a pair.. I simply hate Takumi!! ("v") 12/17/2006 03:40:00 PM