Today, I super tired... But still have to go out.. Went Central @ Boat quay with Nee.. When we went there, half of the shop had no lights.. Also have those smelly smell of wire burned... However, There's nothing to shop.. Items was so expensive, TAKAI YO!! Then went to Kinokuniya... Nee wanna find dunno wad book.. Then i was busy looking for stationary again.. Brought a memo book.. Then went to AMK Central.. Brought the ice-cream dearie brought yesterday... Went home had dinner with my family then had the ice-cream... sono aisukuri-mu wa oishii desu ne?! totemo suki desu! Thn had some argue with him again.. He planned on the 4th & 5th take off then 1 whole week dun nid to go work can accompany me.. But who knows he didnt apply off on the 5th.. Just nice tat day my sis need help in moving house.. Now he cant... I really dunno lo... Then he said i dun understand him! YES! U R HARD TO UNDERSTAND @ LEASE I DO TRY TO UNDERSTAND U BUT ALWAYS INJURIED BY UR WORDS OF DON'T UNDERSTAND U!!!

To him:
You can't give me anything! Not any of your time, nor money or things i wants.. Now, not even your love, dote, spoiled on me.. I didnt ask so much from you right? I didn't even ask those from you anymore.. All i want is to be happy with you... That all i want from you now.. But, what can you give? No longer those laughter, happiness, sweetness... But Tears, Sadness & injuries from you! You destory every of your words & promises u made for me.. You even destory the dreams & wishes i had on you.. Is this you ways of loving me? cherishing me? Or hurting me? My most important day of my life! 21sth birthday.. I thought can celebrate with you. Just you & me.. But this small request you also cant make it! What else can i request from you?! I didn't even put any blame on you... I kept quiet as long as u can celebrate our 1yr happily.. However, all this goes in tears before anything... If i have to be with you for years, It means every year, our anniversary or my birthday, you can never celebrate for me or be there for me! Maybe your life will be more colourful without me.. More happier & suitable for you.. No ones add in anymore stress in you.. Don't have to take out time for me you can sleep all you want that no 1 will disturb you. Don't have to quarrel or cold war with me since i'm not understanding to you! I'm staring to hate police! Will my love for you staring to fade away? since i make this decision? Like what my both sisters said " This kind of things nothing to happy off.. He can make a sweet, happy, surprise day for this special day for you.. It doesn't means it's important to him! Doesn't mean he can do it for the rest of your life! Oneday, if he forgotton or didn't wanna do anything for you on these u known as important day, what will you do?". Every human will change! Just like how i've changed now & how you've changed now.. No matter how much effort i put in to understand you more or be more sweet to you, you won't appretite it! U still feel that i won't understand you as ever... YES! you might have unhappy & stress in your works.. But me? I also have stress, unhappy in you! All i can is endure to let our r/s last long.. All i can is waiting, wish, hope.. You know how hard & pain for me to take all this from you? Do you really understand me? I so protective of you towards anyone.. But you can injure me how you want to! Without me, asking you to read my blog, find out what happened to me, you will read go get into this web! Perhaps, it's time for me to let go... Really let go! I know, If 1 day, i were to leave you, you won't do anything to stop me nor do anything for me... For who i am! At lease do let me feel i'm really being cherish by you! Loving Always! If 1 day, this blog stop updating, it means there's no more story of HURTS & QING!

("v") Will there have endless story of us? Or will our story end someday? ("v") 3/27/2007 11:40:00 PM