After 2 days of works, already tired like hell.. Around 3pm, i called him tell him that he can get ready to come as i'm going home.. However, 5pm, he still not here.. So i called him asked where is he.. He said he just got on the bus not long ago.. Why you always needs hours to come? at lease 2hrs.. Else more than that.. i was unhappy so i told him not to come, as he come here not awhile have to rush home.. waste money & time.. But he said wanna go dinner with me, so i let him be.. Do i have to wait all the time? And always quarrel, he will just keep quiet n dun care abt me.. or.. i dunno how to describe! i just hate the way when you r angry, upset or unhappy with me... I was so angry because, i cried yet he just look at me.. I know u dun dare to come near me.. But is the time i need you.. Then i rush to kitchen peel the pear skin.. make pear with sour plum for him.. So that when he at work, got something to eat... Then we so tired as both of us have to work.. so we took a nap.. After awhile, i wake him up.. asked him go for dinner but who knows both of us had no money at all.. my last $10 gave him 5 april 07.. As he had no money.. Then i asked him know.. But i didnt realise that the way i talk was like chasing him off... Then he went off without hugging or kissing me at all.. After awhile i realise i do have fault.. for having such a hot temper n fussy.. Then i apologize to him.. When he reached home, still accompany me play audition.. Even next day he have to go work in the morning.. Thanks dear i knwo your effort...

("v") Dunno wad happened to me! Having mood swing again... Just cant stand myself.. Can someone pls stop my life? I simply hate myself, my life, my charater.. Just end my life without getting others hurts.. Since i'm someone who slack all the time.. spend so many money of my mom.. Give so much trouble to people who loves me.. So many illness that torture me... I REALLY SICK OF MY LIFE!! ("v") 4/07/2007 11:03:00 PM