watashi no ane to imouto wa totemo baka yo! Wake me up from sleep.. Then we tried to fixed the stupid printer. Was stuck by my paper clip. Thus both of my sister keep saying me.. Cos i always nag at them.. asked them not to put anything on the printer but who knows was my fault.. So they was mocking at me.. If we asked Cannon people come help us fix have to pay &85 if not we bring over also have to pay $55 just for the stupid clip was stucked! WHY WAS I SO UNLUCKY THIS FEW DAYS?! THINGS THAT I NEED, I CHERISH WAS SPOILED!! LIKE MY MP3!! Plus i was broke.. Spend alot on our anniversary.. With the stress of my sisters, they keep laughing non stop.. mocking at me, i hardly lift my head up.. until i FIX THAT STUPID PRINTER!! i tried & tried.. used everything i could do.. But just cant get that clip out... Cant stand any more, i cried! YES! I'M A CRY BABY!! i myself cant even stand myself for crying all of the time!! When these things happened, i hope i can share with him.. However, he just woke up.. Thus alittle blur.. Wadever i said, he just keep huh huh huh? Until i shout at him... I know i was in the wrong... But i really dunno wad's happening to me!! These few days, i wasn't on good mood.. Keep getting mood swing.. Angry with myself for nothing.. Even wanna hide myself in the dark.. Hide myself from others even him & my family members.. Then i cant stand anymore, i went to get a packet of tibit hide myself in a corner eatting.. until my sister notice me i hide myself in the toilet... After awhile, i went to bed hide.. Until my mom came home help me fixs that printer problem.. i faster jumped up! So surprise that the clip drop out so easily.. I used my finger to touched the tips of the clip then i lossen & drop out.. I was put of words.. in my heart FINALLY I CAN LIFT MY HEAD UP!! @ night, had dinner with my family.. My mei treats us Fish & co.. Was not bad!!

("v") What happening to me? this few days, i was so agressive!! Everyone dun even dare to come near me.. Even him, i can feel this fear on me.. I nagged, show attitude, shouted @ him.. Which i dun even know wad i'm doing... Am i really getting depression? My heart feels~ hardly describe! I'm afraid i will hurt more deeply to those who still willing come near me & those who love me! Dear, dun come near me.. even i wish you would come to console me.. But...... i'm afraid i would hurts u without knowing.. Then said sorry which cant heal anything! ("v") 4/09/2007 11:21:00 PM