worked till 1pm plus.. half day =S cause wanna go get a phone same as my mei.. sony ericsson w880i.. However wasn't able to get it.. Kinda sad about it.. Hmm~ then after my sis went out, me & him had a big quarrel.. This is the worst quarrel we ever had.. i saw him cried bitterly & beg me.. Saw how his heart & my heart was broken.. At 1st i wan only upset about couldn't get the phone.. If i insist of getting, i can able to get.. however i'm not that selfish.. If i get it, he wont be able to spend on anything even on food.. Thus, i give up on the phone... Then he did tried to console & coax me.. Maybe is cause i'm too stuborn.. I keep telling myself nevermind cause i dun really like that phone as i wanna get flip or slot up phone.. But dunno why i behave this way.. Then we chatted until half way, he told me he changed... i tot he change to tat bad boy how i know in the past.. But was not, was more worst.. He told me he smoke.. I pushed him away without thinking n cry painfully.. WHY MUST YOU LIED TO ME? He smoke, i drink.. Dead drunk.. he snatch that bottle from me but unknowingly, he cut my hand.. During drunk that period of time, i dunno wad i said & do.. But all i know is i forgive him again.. Hope you wont hurts me again.. If u feel unhappy or stress tell me.. Just dun smoke.. the most i wont nag at you.. After resting awhile, we went to his friends chalet.. i didn't eat much.. His friends was so friendly.. Keep asking me eat.. I wish i could join them the fun but dunno y, i'm anti social.. i wish to join them but hide behind them.. Notice 1 thing he can gamble, he just forget about me.. or should i say he gets to play he would forget about me... Saw how they sabo those who were sleeping.. At midnight, we eat again.. DUN WASTE FOOD.. this time i eat as much as i could.. after that i went to sleep as for him, he play majong again.. But dunno when, he sleep beside me... all of the 4 couple were sleeping together.. including me!

("v") I wish i could join them not to be aniti social.. But i dunno wad to start a topic!! I wish we wont quarrel that worst again.. I wish you wont break my heart again.. Thought i was drunk, but i still remember that face of your.. Deep in my heart was so hurts.. Dear u really hurts me badly.. My heart was shatted.. I give u a chance pls dun take it for granted.. I wish next time u do anything pls think of will you hurts me so deeply again?("v") 4/15/2007 11:44:00 PM