HE DARN FUC* UP!! HOW MANY TIME DO U WANNA KEEP PUTTING ME AEROPLANE? DO U KNOW I SUPER HATE THOSE FEELING?! Do u really know those feeling that u r giving me? Wadever things u say r just words n no other meaning... So u said u loved me, perhaps it's just a words.. But it's nothing to you!

Today was a very important day.. It's my mom birthday.. & he said he would come.. in the afetrnoon, he didnt really contact me.. Thus i called him.. n say we meet at 6 plus.. At my house.. End up he just nv show up.. I knew the same old excuses he will give.. I called many time.. & consider abt our relationship.. If i really mean nothing to you.. & with those words.. empty promises u gave.. IS JUST A RUBBISH!! u won't make it comes true.. So is our dreams.. Thus, i decided to put a fullstop between us.. If.. Really if i'm really mean something to u other than words, u will do something & not sitting there doing nothing.. When i came home called him, he didnt apologise.. Didnt say anything infact is NOTHING AT ALL!! I once said i wish u won't say things that u cant do it.. So is better not to tell me.. But i notice that say or not, doesn;t make a different.. Cos you will NEVER do anything for me.. Just to make me sweet.. Everything you do need me to push including coaxing me!! Think back wad have you really do for me to sweeten our relationship? or just to make me smile with ur own will & suprise for me? All i can is NOTHING!! Not Birthday nor our anniversary!! All i get from u is DISAPPOINTMENT or not complete surprise!! All you can is give me money or bring me out getting things i would want.. But you know wad i really wants you know there's million of things i wanted.. Why dun you get it for me but bring me out to choose?! I rather guess what is inside the wrapping paper... You always planned things to make me sweet but you didn't do any.. You always say will let me see let me feel & not just letting me hear... But it ends up nothing even you didn't tell me... I didn't angry that yesterday you can't make it i know you are tired.. But not today! Know how disappointed am i? Falling from a bright star from the sky... Perhaps my dreams will never comes true... U said you will cherish me & every little things i gave on the day u broke the mug, lost the braclet & almost lost the dollie.. & this is wad you call cherish? But is okay to lose you now.. Cos i'm starting to lose myself... I'm trying so hard to end my life.. Just that you dun know anything..

Anyway i had a happy dinner with my family just that some 1 was mission.. It's a incomplete dinner.. Uncle spend $178 on the dinner..

("v") End of our fairytale.. Even i dun wish to.. But it seems like i cant make any other choices.. i still believe the words.. If i'm somebody to you, u will do something if not.. I'm nobody! I must try gamble it with my heart.. Else i won't know who i am really is for you! do u really love me, cherish me? The answer will be out! ("v") 5/08/2007 10:25:00 PM