I felt tiring for living.. I just wanna be a normal person.. Dun have to particpate in any things that is related to god.. I suddenly very very hate them.. I hide myself from them.. Whatever things i dreamt, I try to forget.. Just dun wanna remember anything.. Suddenly i hate Thursday, Saturday & Sunday!! Simply hate it.. Faster get a job.. So that i can get rid of them~~ If this carry on, i might dun talk to my mom as well.. I just more & more hate my life! Althought, My mom dotes me alot..But is like i was force to live on.. Force to do things i dun wanna to... End up i behaving so anti everyone.. I barely talk to them, communicate with them.. Not even wanna face them.. Just wanna lock myself in a corner.. But lucky! These few days dearie so sweet to me.. =D He's trying hard to improve himself.. He did with those effort! I'm really happy that he did something to our r/s.. I wish faster wish our dreams come faster.. I cant stay here anymore.. I'm going insane.. If i have my own family i can get rid of those things i hate to do.. But still have to do it...

("v") Can stop asking me to do those things i hate? Stop physco me those things i hate? & stop talking about them.. Just leave me how i wanna be.. I HATE DOING THOSE STUPID GOD STUFF!! Wad did i get? Nothing! No matter how much i did, they will still unhappy with me... Then get others to replace me! ("v") 6/08/2007 07:11:00 PM