i think i managed get half of him out of my heart.... And another guy had replaced that half side of my heart... I keep telling myself not to... Must learn from my lesson~ But now i'm less miserable le... That guy always chatted with me.. he care more than he does... He always console me... Sometimes i missed him but i cannot tell just wanna hide towards myself~~ i wanna b fair to both of them... Thus, keep telling myself we r just friends... Tot he always call me slave but he also call me princess... It's the 1st time someone call me that~ LOL~ All along he always accompany me play css, train or chat with me... Make me laugh until i cried... But last night i gets very down... Cos of him... His ex called him (i dunno wad's really happened) ended up making him wanna quit css.. i was so sad for 2 reason! I dunno how to console him or make him laugh~ like wad he did when i was down... Another reason is if he quit css i got no interest in playing as well... i can't keep him if he really wanna quit... i feel so useless!! Was like no fun without him anymore... NiA without him.... i dunno how will it become! I love it when he care abt me! I love when he called me after gaming! I love the way i bully him and he say me~~ But~~~~~~ i hav to control myself there's no reason i can tell him that i miss him when i hav my deardear already~ Thanks to him.. always supporting me asking me hold on... make me happier & less miserable~~ No matter wad faster come back to game okay? I'lb waiting for u master! Cos i wanna kill u, bully u!!! i feel really happy being with him!

("v") I'm in dilemma!! Hope i won't make any mistake! Really scare yet i dun wanna lose a friend like him too ("v") 10/15/2007 07:06:00 PM