18 nov 2007
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finished work early~ reached home around 3.30pm.. bath and do my stuff... meeting them at night for movie.. i was checking up the time & show... Then brought 3 movie ticket of game plan for $22... wanted go out 1st de wanna buy my stuff de end up i was late so salt came and fetch me.. i think we really run out of topic... When we reached, went to brought coffee~ The had dinner at long john.. after doing so many stuff we went collect the ticket then know it's monday not today~ so~~ RUIN! i wanna watch movie so tempted~ Then we went to find de5~ sat at coffee shop & chatted until was closed.... At night i think i did drink forget le.. Just know that talked alot to salt on phone.. i guess i hav to let go of my feeling i dun wanna see him so emo cos of me! i think he's tired of his life too.. He did so much & care alot for other and hav no time for himself... He care alot on his friends... I dunno how to describe that feeling he hav but i guess i can understand.. i dun wanna b a burden to him also~ Thus, i decide no matter how hard i'm gotta get myself out of that hole! wanna him able to breath again.. Being friend might b a better choice~ Everyone got 2 personality.. not only u salt~ dun think that way! i really feel so useless!! The last msg he send was kinda sad "Nite nite last time call you this ba darling lao po and pigcess"

("v") i dunno wad can i do~ wad can i help! I'm so useless!! I guess i shdn't say much cos the more i say, the more unhappy he is... He got the power of being a leader gather everyone one... Wad's mine? i guess muy aura is a curse that is cannot b too good or close to anyone no matter how much i wish to~~ so many things happened until i'm alreday lost my path! All i can say & wish to say to him is i'm sorry!! and i'll keep that feeling to myself in here, my heart! ("v") 11/19/2007 09:13:00 AM