last night i manage to drink without letting him know... i was in game with them tot i was drunk... i hide myself not i dun wanna talk.. i wish to joke & fool around with them but~~ hai~ forget it! i dunno how to say! I dunno wad am i thinking!! i'm gonna train my mp5 & ak haha! after awhile i feel very giddy and my body start to numb~ 1st time i drink my heart not pain but feel very unwell... end up i dunno how i fainted! didn't dare to let anyone know else later they will worried abt me!! and he know i drink again gonna ~~~~ so i didn't let anyone know except refrost~ & my mei saw i drink when i fainted no 1 know~~ HAHA! When i awake, my pc flood with messages then i saw he still in game so i joined in~~ LOL! not i dun wanna answer u i dunno wad to say or answer u.. i dunno wad & how can i make u happy~ if i wasn't there if u dunno me from the start i guess u r happier~ i can't do anything for u but adding problems~ then he told me check on my phone~ wow got 32 missed calls from him & bk.. and alot of sms! i guess this time i really drink until KO! you know whenever u called me L***o in game i wanted answer u.. but do i fits? whenever i ans either i'm died or i can't hear wad u say~~ i'm not trying to run away from u.. i just afraid of hurting u.. i'm just afraid of showing my feeling to u... I'm sorry~ i know i'm stupid, navie...!! Most stupid is i know i dun say or tell u anything, u will never know wad i'm doing even i written here, u also won't know de!

("v") sorry is wad i can really say i really wish i'm able to reply when u call me that in game! i simply love it too =x ("v") 11/21/2007 09:43:00 AM