Ah~ so long nv blog le! after that day i've clear our misunderstanding, we back to normal.. Haha! But it dun last for 3 days.. he abit treating me cold.. like ignoring me! LOL!! *Why am i always putting on a fake smile?* recently, i feel lonely~ BK! also seldom online dunno wad happened to him.... mayb busy bah~ cos i know they going to have exams le... i MISSED bullying bk~ I missed chatting with him!! AH~ BK come accompany me crazy in game ley~ No u fool with me very sian ley~~ i decided to do something le... 1stly, i wanna say sorry to him.. *sorry salty* i wanna b bad girl just for once! i wanna know the taste of smoking~ flirting, drinking.... 2ndly~ i wanna really treat u as a friend le.. cos~ i really dunno how to love anyone and i know it's impossible for us~ I dunno wad u treat me as... But if i'm that "tao ren yan" just let me know.. dun nid aviod me... and hope you continue treat me this way.. the more pain & miserable i am now, the more i can force myself to stop loving you!! I'm failure in anything as eva!! But this time round, i really dun wanna lose you guys! It seems like i dun even fits to b friends of u all... No matter wad thank guys for leaving the best memories part of my life! Especially bk & salty! i really wish i'm a guy so we can b very gd buddies...

You are fate to be loner for life! so walk down the path of your sorrows, hurts & miserable alone! Dun pray or wish there's someone will accompany you! Endure it! Bare with it! until the last breath of yours.. U already went 1/2 of ur life... so you do it until the day of ur death!!

("v") No matter wad no regret for falling for you.. Cos in hurts disctionay, no regret this words! Hurts ah hurts... wake up! dun fall anymore! This love will nv hav a result or answer! ("v") 12/02/2007 08:14:00 PM