today, my work was very very busy.... i non stop working till 3pm then went for my lunch... wad i can say is I've improve in my work~ After lunch i went to take out all the case note that needed for tml~ Then i have nth to do... so all of us was joking & elling jokes abt Ms seetoh~ Make fun of her like mad~ LOL!

My feelings:
Why do i feel so hurts in my heart? why my heart is aching whenever i think of you... And the pain is like getting more & more painful each & everyday... i just dun understand y... I've tried so hard yet u still dun wanna move~ I shd really let my heart died in love~ I always sucks in wadever things do~ I'm a failure girl~ In everything~ They won't give me a chance to amend no matter how much i wish or cherish! Right now, he no longer hug me and gave me kisses~ I missed the way he looked into my eyes and say i love you~ Also the way he called me dear~ However i missed those feeling he ever gave to me~ Really!~ Even now no matter how hard i searching for that feeling from him, i can nv get it anymore.. Perhaps it's time for me to stop bugging him~ If we really meant to b couple for life, no matter is 1 yr, 2 years or even 10 years he will come back find me~ If I'm not the 1 then i shall giv u my blessing then~ Now i just nid to concentrate on my work~ Must work & tired myself until i can stop thinking of you~ Gonna numb myself with alchol & works~ Will he cry for me and b by my side if it's the end of my life? I missed those eyes when he look into mine~ i Missed those tears that he used to drop for me~ But now everything is too late~ And i can't manage to do anything back~ Like i said once the feeling is gone, you can nv get it back~ Unless there's a mircle~ Like in the past i used to hav for once... I guess i won't b that lucky anymore~ I'm not longer a lucky girl of his~ It's not my fault or his~ cos we did/tried all we can~ just can say it's not the right time again~ No regret that i was twice ur girl that lived in there~ Ur red, warmth, bloody heart that used breathing for me~ I still loved you as b4. My love for you, won't b or never b any changes~ Good luck in everything u do~ Wish u get wadever things u wan in life~

("v") If u were to ask me wad i wish for now is... To end my life! Only this way, i then can end all the pain, hurts & sorrows in me! But at lease let me see your tears again & the look of couldn;t bare me to leave ur side even just for 1 sec ("v") 1/28/2008 11:37:00 PM