Recently, i keep drinking madly... Just to keep myself out from crying~ HA! i guess i couldn't wake up without him.... Nee went to shenzhen ytd 29/02/08. we grew up together nv leave each other side... was somehow very down for me... i couldn't stop her for her future.. i went to the gathering with ludi they all.. And met up neh neh for supper & dinner... on that supper & dinner i was drunk.... it's my 1st time drunk outside.... and now, i deceide to let go of him... dun wanna hold him any further.. when he wans his freedom that much... and i wanna destory wadever i hav now.. then destory myself... Guys or anyone who care for me... Just leave me alone... My heart is dead.. words just won;t reach my heart... let me hide in the darkness myself.. dun save me... cos i totally gave up on myself... i knew i'm no longer live in his heart.. I called him told him that i'm sick he just asked 2 question and then hang up.. Dun even ask why am i crying.... wad happened to me... even after his work... he wont make a call to me... i felt that really felt that... I'm nothing to him... even tot he's everything to me... so wad? so wad i missed him badly? will he miss me? so wad i loved him madly? I dun even worth anything to him! Everything he gave me... it's just hurting & a memory for me right now... He's too perfect for me now... Like he said.. he know alot of girls out there right now.. and they may b better than me million of times.. and also may treat him better than me in any ways.... My Hope & dreams has been destory! Might destory myself as well~ So wad if i loved him that madly? Wad i get in this story?

("v")Tears, hurts, heartbreak and death~("v") 3/01/2008 06:24:00 PM