i decided not to torture myself anymore... Must treat myself well!! Pamper myself... shower myself loads of love... learn from where i fall, not run and avoid... Learn back love myself before i could love anyone else.... i dun wanna make some1 i love or ppl who loved me so miserable and unhappy... i mayb quiet.. i may dunno how to joke.. at lease i live happier they will b happier as well... Back to where i am.. that time i'm single yet happy... Cos i hav her~ Nee with me all the way.. we drunk together, slp together.. we were very close... no argue no quarrel... Drink is drink but not dead drunk~ Missed the day we brew chinese tea and drink and hav snack... missed those day my smile, my laughter.... to think back... why cos of this 2 years wad had happened things to changed myself... May b true that no 1 needs me.. and i dun hav the abilty to let anyone need me... but at lease i can accompany my mom~ it's still not useless... sy ah sy~ learn not to look so far... just where u can see is more than enough~ after a few months of torture... finally i'm half awake.. not gonna fall deeper again... I MUST LEARN! i may stupid, dumb and useless in anything~ BUT pls learn~

T.T aww~ i missed my long hairr~~~ 4/30/2008 12:49:00 PM