i woke up early today.. went market... Then smsed him... forget to off my pc.. wad he msg i think jie all saw... those sweet messages... I bet he wont say again~ Then dunno why smsed him no reply.. i waited and waited.... wait till sleep off... Then when i wake up... i dunno wad happened he was very angry and emo.. i keep wondering wad i did again... i really upset.. and heartache for ending up this way again... When i saw he say dun wanna talk... i dunno wad to do really helpless... i wanted b by his side make him smile... or listen to him... yet i scare make it worst... i know i always so dumb and will make it worst! wan to do that cannot do this alot dun wan... Miserable feeling~ Whole day i was alone~~~~ Somehow when he calms down, and talk to me i feel my heart is breaking~ sometime ur words really very harsh~ I REALLY CARE ABT HOW U FEEL!! ur every feeling reactions means to me alot alot alot! i wanna u smile always but i dunno hwo to make u smile!! only make u angry! I really very angry with myself.... Why always when i'm down or emo... he will b there and i will complaint non stop! When he having some problem... just keep it away from me! WHY GUYS ALWAYS LIDAT?! can;t we share everything why mush hav WALL inbetween us?!

("v") I really cannot take it lerr... feel like fainting! I angry till my blood rush to my brain~ Headache for days... pls pls pls... god pls take my life away and give it to ppl who cherish their life than me! i really wish hav a machine can suck my life span away and transfer to others! even sell my soul away i also dun mind anymore! i just dun wanna b torture by feeling anymore!("v") 4/22/2008 10:03:00 PM