sigh~ china earth quake... but i think nee is still safe there...~ hmm~ it has been sometime we really didn't chat.. was trying hard to dun relay on some1... the more i force myself dun think, the more memories flashed back~ make me smile for a sec... then back to sad... with him around is already part of my life.. even i hav to prepare for the worst i feel that i still need him... i just feel lost without him... how to be sweet? how can i b a candy that melts a person heart? really bored of my life dun even feel like online anymore... things will nv get back to where it was.. nv be the same anymore... He's putting fullstop so i shd accept his signal...~ and stop waiting~ shd move on already~ then~ i shall try not to come online this often too~ shd i just avoid everyone and really left alone? do i really bare to let go this kind of friendship i've been wanted for yrs? I REALLY WISH!!! i'm a guy! so can b that close to them~ well~ i will change my blog link again~ haven think of the address yet~ uglytoadstory.blogspot.com? lovemenomore.blogspot.com? uglyrei.blogspot.com? uglyhurts.blogspot.com? dunno wad to put also~ head gonna burst.. tml will get my report of heart check up... hopefully is wad i wan~ i promise i wont afraid of the result~ 5/12/2008 10:57:00 PM