today, hmm i kind of very quiet... just dun feel like talking... alot of things flashed thru my mind again... suddenly i wanna learn not to envy and jealous of wad others hav... i'm chasing wad i'm jealous and envy of others and neglect wad i hav in hand... infact.. i'm just a dog.. follow wad others hav... to think back.. if i dun jealous and envy of wad ppl hav... i dunno wad i wan in life~ i must learn to see wad's near me and not too far that i dunno wad's going on around me... that y.. now i've lost everything i used to hav... cos i didn't notice their "chun zai" i've neglected wad's around me, let them get a chance to slip away... and now... i've lost everything!! Pls pls pls learn to see wad is around u and cherish them~ Somehow i missed him... badly~ His shadow keep flashing in my mind! yet i dunno wad to do.. just feel useless when he's sick i can't b by his side dun even got the courage to call him... All i can do is not to disturb him resting... And hide all the feeling within myself.... i also dun hav any ****** to b there infact~ Not gonna online that often anymore.. i nid to get a job lerr.. no more slacking! Aug going HK dun even know got money to spend anot~ i keep spending lidat... Mom bday coming! my bday coming! Go HK, Restock my lotion, shampoo stuff.... All money money money!! HAI! just spend $105 on vodka ytd when emo-ing, $109.70 on anime, $50 on mask~ GG liao lar! I'm going insane~ overspend this week no food for me! Maggie for the week!! i wanna work part time.. those job i found all is fulltime deeee!! 5/04/2008 05:09:00 PM