Hmm~ i finally able to wake up.. really wake up from the sweet, hurts, bitter dream~ The truth is hurtsful, but at lease my heart felt lighter.. just like u know the truth of some my story, to you also that hurtsful.... I guess this few days/weeks will b the hardest day of my life... Why alway when i dun wanna turn back and take a look... but always so many things appearing to make me turn back to take a peek.. Why? why must i make myself so miserable? u not only given me those that i need... but also u get back everything i've missed or lost in the past... Now i hav a caring family, a dog i always asked for.. most imptly is those feeling i always envy/jealous in others~ Everyone got chance but not me~ Anyway gd news that alice able to patch with her ex... Hmm hope alice dun walk wrong path again... not everytime gets the chance to U-turn~ sometime u choosed on the wrong path, and there's no U-turn for euu, can only continue the journey with the mistake u've made... Mayb this is the wrong path that he & i choosed... our dreams; shattered, our wishes; destroyed, Our promises; Never fulfill, Our love; No U-Turn!

*i'm getting stronger... i tot i will b drinking for a couple of days... crying a couple of nights.. But I DIDN'T!!! i also dunno how i able to make it.. Cheers! But i just wanna b alone... so dear friends who care abt me, pls pls pls dun call me/look for me for the time being... i just wanna heal it myself.. without anybody's help.. i'm perfectly fine! i know i hav grp of gd, caring, close friends... When mom knows abt wad happened to me & him, mom was so ji tong~ she say my daughter so special/gd *mussy~*.. is their lost and scolded them KAM GONG!!~ she's also saying korkor~ =X Well i guess i'm tired & sick of falling and trying over and over again.. So i guess i won't getting involve in r/s for some time ba... GANBATTE!! =D 7/15/2008 02:10:00 PM