Today i feel like going out with him~ Suddenly flash back alot of the our past.. the way he treat me, pamper me, coax me, held my hands, hug me in his arms & everything he did for me... eventually the feeling comes back and start to miss him.. i know it's stupid.. is impossible to get back to how we used to b~ But those memorise i just couldn't stop it running thru my mind.. is something i really can't control!! I had stop drinking alchol to numb myself.. Manage to heal myself and get use to how i am now.. But why out of sudden, i'm drop to where i am again? i tried to occupie my time so that i wont think much.. But still failed!! It happened that i know he didn't go home ytd but went drinking @ friend house.. the feel really weird!! is like it still matters no matter how i act as i dun care about him!! And now wad kind of status i can stop him or interfer him? Isn't that funny? i just wanna go out with him like how we used to be... wanna b that loving couple with him again i think is impossible! i guess he the only 1 who able make me stuck in this maze for that long~ if i said i'm fine, that's surely a lie from me.. cos he still mean alot to me.. 我還是很在意你! 對我來說你還是那麼的重要! 而我, 還是沒辦法不愛你, 也沒辦法放棄你和我們的愛情. 頭髮剪斷了還可以流長. 愛情剪斷了還能挽回嗎?

*sorry my chinese and english failed so alot broken language & grammers

11 july 2008.. Hmm i do nth.. those few days my life was like so dreamy.. like no feeling, no emotion, no nothing~ is like dun feel any pain, dun nid eat or drink, dun feel any hurts, dun feel lonely jst like in my dreams... @ night when to hav dinner with ma, jie & yan.. long time nv had such a nice kay chap!