i think i've pissed him off.... cos i keep drinking recently... and i realise i sms wrong person to him.... u know~ that day he came the way he hugged me is not the same as b4... is like there's some 1 else in his heart than me... he hugged kaka longer than me... i really wish to go crusie with him... i really do... i really wish to tell him... dun go club/pub... stop drinking & smoking too~ cos i care as much as he does... i knew that his heart has contain another person or mayb i'm no longer live in his heart... like he said b4 he has given up... and now he came to me is wan me to stop torturing myself! if that's the case then i rather continue.... if this time he dun stop me from torture myself, i able to walk to where i wanna go~ i'm not taking death to treaten him! or wad... I ever told u... you r my everything, i wish u will b the last and the only guy live within me.. my energy, my pillar... without you... everything seems so meaningless and incomplete to me... cos having u with me is already part of my life! i also dunno why... i'm this stuborn for not setting you free... i dun wanna force u... i wan ur smile on ur face... if ur wan me back is cos dun wan me to hurts myself than i'll say forget it... i wan the reason of patching is cos u love me nth more that that! I'll take ur slience as dun love.. Since u always ignore my words from my heart and nv gave me a ans... is like trying to run and avoid.... since this blog is for you and u not reading i shall keep all the words for u here... until 1 day, u turn back... if i'm not with u anymore but here's my words that shows my shows love for u .... if i am around i'll still waiting for u! As long as i'm breathing, i will keep on loving u... till the end of my last breath~ 8/20/2008 01:58:00 PM