Hmm~ I missed his sms! i wanted to sms him.. But he would ignore me!! Why god hav to treat me this way? he gave me friends but slowly took it away! He took all the trust in myself and in anything... Everything was getting in my way.. Like Jin said... i'm already picking myself up now.. dun fall again... So wad?! i'll still running on the same track! and fall again... It's recycling! I'm really sick of running, falling and climbling up the hole again! I'M TIRED!!! But who'd cares? will there b someone appearing and carry me run while i get some rest? NO! i won't!

Jin, you made me realise alot of things.. made me somehow awake of my Illusion & Hallucination world... I already half awake and realise how ugly i am, how ugly the world is! It's far from miserable... It's make me dun dare to get my eyes open up.... I'm a empty shell now really! A girl without love, trust, faith, without anything.. Not even tears or smile... But somehow u appeared, did help me colour some part of my life! Ur care is more than any friends would gave... Will u really not give up such a ugly and negative girl? Will u b the 1st closest guy friend i ever hav? Just 1 will do!

我都已經死心了..
我累了, 真的累了!老天阿!
可以不要在玩我嗎? 放過我吧! 9/26/2008 06:01:00 PM