Thu 30 Oct 08:
Today i work without my soul... michelle can tell that i'm unhappy... barely see me smiling~ I cut my finger while working. Worst part is i dunno how i cut it until i feel the pain. And the hangover was so bad until i hardly work... Sometime i just can;t control anything! If he can go this kind of place why can't i? Besides i'm going to some peaceful place to chill! I didn't anyhow do any things...
Aww~ i'm back to the same square... I'm still alone walking over and over the same place.... A smoker need time to quit smoking.... so am i.. if i still unable to let go those hurts i'll still continue drinking and numbing myself or torture myself....! Since u can;t accept for who i am... i can;t help... i love euu i didn't restrict you from smoking, drinking, chilling, club-ing, anything!~ I'm just purely drinking not other than that.. why can't u accept it?
U r the only one is always special in my eyes... It makes me can't realise who is with me.. cos i simply wans is ur love & care that's all!! If we didn;t get back, i wont disappoint euu or upset euu.. I'm dumb & stupid!! overall, i'm sorry! truly sorry!

*The little wish of mine that can nv come true!

Wed 29 Oct 08:
Took off today cos dudu coming sg... met zx for dinner then wait for dudu... Went to timbre chill! i didn't drink that much like that time... But i was freaking drunk... he came to fetch me escort me home... When i reached home, i was crying crazily.... hugging my mom cried as loud as i can... Haven been hugging her like this for dunno how many of years le... i rmb i did that when i was still a kid... my mom console me... She didn't scold me but showing her love to me... And there's 2 friends who really do care abt me... came all the way to my house.. they wanted go fetch me but dunno how qing already there! Tml meeting jon.. he's showing me a pretty car... I guess like wad they said... i drink with a unhappy mood.. that's y i drunk easily! SHITs! another ugly side... 這次我把我的辛福給悔了! 我們約定的辛福也沒了! 因為我還是不能改掉喝酒的係貫... 我是笨蛋嗎?!

*Forget to take photo with zx and dudu!!

10/30/2008 10:07:00 PM