Wed 15 oct 08:

I'm freaking emo today!!! i dunno why!? I'm unable to control my emotions, temper & the way i speak... I'm behaving so weird & mean! I let Jin know too much abt me & my feelings... I think is some kind of hurts towards him ba.. Gd things is he still willing to be by my side supporting me in wadever decision i've made.... i almost blow up as more and more things happened recently~ Infact i can say nth happens but i dunno why i feel so emo, easily agitated & pissed off! Going insane soon~ Wanted stop drinking for sometime, end up i'm still drinking... I wanna draw some new picture for myself soon~ The topic is Real & Fake Hurts!

Jin, i dun wish to hurts u.. I guess now i'm able to manage any obstacle. Or am i used to b fighting alone with the obstacle? i'm no longer depend on my bf too much.. somewhat, able to survive without guys.. So, when i'm unhappy, hurts, feeling emo etc etc etc.... I'm already used to face it alone...

This would be another lonely long night!
There used to b someone who is still awake @ this hr, never fail to sms me, occupied me with smses... When i really feel unhappy like now, he'd drive me around sg.. In his car, i'm quiet as always.. Yet he'd keep that atmosphere warm... he'd talked and drive till he send me home... But somehow everything fade without a reason.. And i've lost a friend like him... Frankly speaking he might be another guy who's able to move me & my life!
I cherish ppl may not b the one who cherish me!