i'm still sick yet still got to work.... almost fainted ytd & today.. and today i'm totally black out twice... i really dunno when i will collaps...recently i dunno why keep flashing back those memories... make me feel like crying... and i did cried today while drinking~~ even now...he may know everything abt me... but me? i know notthing abt him! i'm like nobody towards him... A STRANGERRR!!!! somehow missed him!! SHITT MAN! i hate this feelings.... it's freaking miserable.... but wad else can i do? is the path i choose..... i used work to numb myself... hopefully i can collaps asap... and leave forever~ i know behind my back this few days, i'm sure he went to pub/bar/club!

when i look in the mirror... i saw a girl in the mirror and she's freaking UGLY!!!
why does love turns into grief?
why does sweet memories turn into painful memories?
Why does painful memories can hardly earse?
Why it just stay in your heart forever?
like a uneraseable stain?

Count down to the day i'm gonna collaps!!!! 11/19/2008 11:54:00 PM