Mon 10 Nov 08:

Well, i will leave quietly... I think We'll nv gets a chance to b tgt... I didn't ask him nor hint him! this time round, i wanna hide the feelings i have for a person... cos for now i keep having a mind set that is better to be friends than lovers... Cos friends can last longer yet lovers got to depend... Thus, i didn't let him know my feelings towards him... I think i'm back to where i am again... But at lease not same square anymore... i won't drunk outside but i will get drunk at home... somewad i feel more safer & No one can see the ugly side or the rubbish i'ld create...

Gotta buy more vodka again, time to get drink and drunk in order to numb myself until the feeling fade away... just like how i used to be...

Dear friends who care abt me,

sry if i'm doing anything that worries you guys... But that's the only way think of~ Can nag/scold at me like ZX (like my grandfather, all cos he care abt me! Really appreciate it!) =x Like this kind of problem still need myself to setter it... so i'll mia for sometime again, if can't reach me then just drop a sms.. i'll only reply to impt msgs~ *Nonsense i know you care abt me! And i guess you know wad's happening to me...Cos u got a strong instinct! Anyway u made me really scare of u... U R FREAKING FIRECE!