i think my depression is back~ seriously! i keep having a urge to do crazy things like torturing myself etc... He asked me to keep my time for him.. He said after work my time is his yet he got no time for me... He got so many stuff to occupy. Not this friend then is that friend. Not friend either sleep or work~ Where's the time for me? No sms from him! It's really hard for him to find a time for me, he's a busy man unlike me! ARGH! i'm asking too much larr!! F***! He wants me to change for him and i did! Not spending my time with other guys just wanna be him! Waiting but nothing comes to me... Always i'm dating him! Asking me to put myself is his shoes wad abt me?! Who will put himself in mine? doesn't make any different right?! back to the same circle again right? No matter how much i wanna settle down with him, i think i'm just day dreaming~ Everything is not the same anymore! Even we get tgt is another story we can;t continue from where we stop! Those missing pages really made a different story! i dunno wad to do right now... i dunno where to continue... i dun wanna go back to where i am nor relay on any alcohol~ But it's damn freaking hard to control my emotions! And sick of how i used to numb myself! 12/08/2008 11:39:00 PM