Sun 21 Dec 08:
Slp till afternoon.. after i get my ass up from my bed, start working again... Rushing those special xmas card! dunno why i feel so pissed off, upset, emo! i wanna drink again! Everytime i said i wanna drink, end up think of he might get angry, i didn't drink but went to bed!
This few days, i'm the 1 keep looking for him! He's too busy for me! He's also sick~ And so, i decided not to interupt wadever things he's busy with~ No matter is with friends, work or rest! I'm not gonna call him!! Until he think of me, rmb me, eventually he will look for me~ if not......... i dunno too~
My blog getting wordy nowadays i shd get some photo/pic soon~

WTF i'm sick again!! Fever, flu and sore throat!! stop getting sick!! If wan let me collaps and leave this place i'll feel much much much better!

Sat 20 Dec 08:
Late for work... alone there was so boring! got nothing to do... sold less than 10 salads~ hahaha!! In the middle of work received his call and know that xmas i won't b able to celebrate with him when i prepare alot surprise for him! Another disappointment! I was too upset till i cried while working~ Then when he called back again i'm dunno if i shd pick up anot.. after missing the 1st call, the 2nd call i still pick up!He asked me things abt the cruise! Hopefully on the 7 jan we really can go~ If not, i'm happy for nothing again~! Hope wont get any disappointment or shatter wish again~ Anyway he know i wasn't happy and asked me what happened..
In the night, went to jie's house for steamboat as it was yan's birthday! Zx, Shane & jacky is there tooo~ 12/21/2008 10:25:00 PM