i've been trying hard to get him back.. But either not replying my smses or returning calls.. i dunno how to get him back.. i really dunno cos i'm no longer what he wants/needs.. Seriously, i'm a negative girl. Which ever guy be with me is really tiring for him... But somehow 1 silly boy is going after me.. Did everything to please me or make me smile.. I'm having depression again that i kept drinking non stop, even trying to find ways to kill myself~ not only depression but also having insomnia tooo! i slept in the morning till evening! Nevertheless, i'll still hold on keep to him and pestering him.. until 4th April! If he dun rmb that day! i'd really give up.. If he ever come back to me, i will give my best shot to love him again! Let the past b past and stop digging it! He always woos me in a way that totally melts me but i took him for granted.. If this time it really comes, i'd promised to give him back that silly girl hide at home.. Trying ways to please him or make him smile! i'd try not to make any unreasonable troubles for him anymore!
He told me once "Do you think i will restart everything again with another girl when there's 1 girl know me and everything?" That's makes me think that it's habit not love! But this time, i dun care if is habit or love.. If just habit, i'll add love~ But it's something impossible!

Well, i always wanted to go club i wanted to know wad's a clubber's life! Tot i hates crowded place but i really wanna know that feeling.. What's makes almost all my friends falls in love with club? They would always says bring me along but i'm always forgotten/spare! Mayb they r trying to keep me away from dangerous place!

I'm always a SPARE
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from this worlds~~ 2/03/2009 10:40:00 PM