Last night was the worst day! I quarrel with everyone.. My sis, my mei and my mom! I've hurts my mom with words again! F*ck~ I really wanna find a place to restart my life~ Run away from the mess~ Whole day i haven been eating still drink in the night with gastric!

Hmm~ He didn't online to find me anymore... Sigh~ Last night i smsed him also didn't reply~ i think~ We are just not fate to be~ I gonna start work for real this time, i wanna save up money and leave Sg within this yr. I'm really tired facing these alone!~ No matter how stuborn and determine i am, we already ended! No matter how much i wish to restart is already impossible~ Wake up siyi~ Stop crying and brace up!
Qing do u rmb in those days you always sings "don't cry" whenever i'm crying? Or super woman to melts me? Rmb u told me i'm your super woman? It's sweet~ I still rmb every single sweet talks yet now is so hurtsful~ Sorry to delete you in facebook.. I think for long time!! And the truth is current Mattias is happier flying freely in the sky~ i'd only bring u troubles, worries and tie you up! I'd leave quietly for now...... i really wish to get back that sweet couple of Hurts and Qing.. But is not possible...Lastly, i wanna u live happily~ i gotta face the truth that without me you are happier x10000 times~
I know i'm stupid to blog down things i wanted tell him.. I know if i dun tell him, he'd nv know. But i just dun hav the courage to tell him anything or everything.. so this blog is the best to vent out my thoughts~
Anyway i notice that i hav afew reader.. Reading my lousy blog but i dunno who they are~ thanks for reading! But i'm closing down my story soon~ =

Why i wanted end my life so desprately?!
Why i hate living?!
Cos my sillyboy is no longer with me to share my everything.....
Without him, everything's sucks and meaningless~
If i'm rich the 1st things i wanna buy back is...
Our pure love~ the love we used to hav!
but too bad! This is something once gone,
you'd nv find back again.... 3/03/2009 11:28:00 AM