today IS OUR ANNIVERSARY!
thou we r not tgt ler~
But do u know i'm still counting?
Nvm u'll nv know~

i didn't slp whole day
made sushi for him~
end up i'm feeding the sushi to the rubbish bin!!
Last night he was supposed to join us in the party~
When i reached, i kept waiting till i went home~
Means i've waited from 11pm ~ 3.30am!
No matter how late is ok i just wish he'll appear
but still, is another disappointment~
I always prepare for disappointment~
I knew how the ending will be...
But i'll still cry~
And tell myself nvm, there's alway next time~
but the very next time i'll still get the same thing!~
I didn't blame him either
cos i know how busy he is..
i only blame myself and hate myself
for loving & need him that much~

He made me cried on Miko and Nicole birthday celebration~
Disappointment one after another~
this time is still A SPECIAL DAY!!

When i reach zouk! Everything to me is like WOW~
It's my 1st time there!
Ha~ So i can't help but keep staring @ how ppl dance, club, high and so on~
As promised,
I didn't drink alot infact only 2 cups, the rest all green tea!
Mom and Mei keep asking me not to be drunk!
I know u all care! But can i hav my own freedom!
i know wad i'm doing!
When i reached there~ Received call from nee
START SCOLDING ME FOR NOT FEEDING MY MONSTER!
i said i forget as i'm late I FORGET RIGHT!
she keep scolding and nagging non stop!!
MAKES ME CRY AFTER THAT CALL!
i quickly hold up my tears i really dun wanna spoiled the atmosphere~
still sms me on the SAME THING!
At that moment, the 1st think comes to my mind is I DUN WANNA GO HOME~
I WANNA RUN AWAY!!
but to where? i got no where to hide or go~
At 1am i wanted go esplanade alone..
as i know i ruined the atmosphere there~
But too crowed~ so i continued stayed at phuture...

Not long later, i joined Deniece and her friend to another place of zouk!
after awhile, we went home~
Thanks for the ride =D

I wished i would disappear from this world~
I simply hate everything..
i've been trying hard and not to give up and being positive!
i failed again! But i'll continue trying!
Until i really cannot take it~
i think i'll really end this painful life!~

I belongs to no where!
when will i able find a place for me to hide forever?!
Just me and monster will do!

i dun care wadever things u guys gonna talk abt me!
i dun wanna know anything~
i really tired! let me be pls~
i know i'm old enough but still as CHILDISH!!
i know u all care but NO MORE NAGGING!
i know both my sisters do read my blog as well~
I guess i'll change my blog link soon~

cos i just dun wanna them to know wad's happening to me in my life!
i dun wanna anymore misunderstanding~
i dun wanna them to dislike my friends
i DUN WAN THEM TO STOP ME GOING OUT WITH WHOEVER i wans to!
thou u all nv say anything BUT ACTIONS speak LOUDER THAN WORDS! 4/04/2009 07:27:00 AM