My monster is sick~
And i did something bad to her when she's unwell!!
she pee on the floor and it's my fault that i didn't put any newspaper for her~
After cleaning, i flare up and throw trumpet on her~
Beat her 3 times hard enough even feels my hand is painful!
After beating her! I feels so heartache!
Actually i wanted do something to let someone know!
she shd also help me clean her pee & poo!
But to think back, she helped me alot today...
Like bath for my monster, feed her....
i nv/rarely throw temper on my baby~
she's so impt that~ i loved and cherish her alot!
Mayb i didn't =S
but why i did this to her when she's feeling so unwell?!
Whenever my sis scolded or beat her my face will turn black!
Is like asking them to stay away from her!
But why the hell i did that to her!

Sorry baby!

Pls be strong ok?! dun fall sick! u gotta stay with me till u r old enough to leave me~
now u only 1 yr old... u're still a baby that need my love and care!
If possible i wish we'll die tgt!!
10yrs time.. i'm 33yrs old!
Old enough to leave this world,
experience enough of life!
Even if places i haven been to, is ok!
Cos i have you with me~
Cos~ u r the only one who wont angry on me, nasty to me, even i'm so mean and bad towards you, u'll always love me
You'r such a obedient monster of mine!
I'm really afraid to face the day of u leaving me!