simply sucks to core!!
i tot to vent my anger on l4d and my vodka would make me feels better
but end up making me worst!

i hated being critcize by others...
i'm sucks so wad u so pro the fuck off larrr!

i wanted washed my clothes and saw my mei things in the washing machine..
i did wash up but still wet so i just leave it to her...
i'm so tired already....
DO I NEED TO HELP U DO?!
when she came home she qns me as if i'm in the fault
and the way she said is like I'M THE ONE TO BLAME!!
yet my mom also said till like my fault!!
HELLO IT'S SAT AND I SURE WILL USE THE WASHING MACHINE AS ALWAYS RIGHT?!
FUCK!! made me feels like staying away from home....
made me feels like running away from this fucking place
I FUCKING HATE THIS HOME!!!!!!!
that's the reason why i always tried to come home late all the time, even i off at 6pm!
cos i hate to come home!!
it's always my fault!!

i'm always running and hiding from problems i'm facing!!
until the time heals everything i'll then show myself!!! when will i learn to face it?!
and kick away this habit?!

I'm confused!! it's really complicated!!!
i can't decided!!
cos i scare to hurts either one!!
whenever i think abt this matter, it gave me a bad headache...
anyway i can;t b greedy too! is impossible to keep everything to myself....
i wonder why the time i spend at home moves faster than work?!

why why why...
God is playing with my fate and feelings again?!
Really dunno what to do neither wad i wan~

Somehow find it pointless to stay in this world!

He have been MIA from me again...
But there's someone who always pamper me, cheering me, accompanied me, take care of me, be around when i need someone....
i wanna watch movie and he always the 1 who buy the ticket and waited for me~

His action really melts me!!! 7/19/2009 04:17:00 AM