Sigh~ it's 4.36am now.
I can't get to sleep. Tml working how am i able to cope.
Anyway i think I'll stop working after this december.
Hopefully this time i really able get into the course i want.

Study for the better.
So i could get a job I'd love.

Wanted show him my concern & care but i think better not.
Just buried in my heart like how i buried my feelings and love for him.
Sometimes I'll still wonder how's he doing.
Did he get any upset/unhappiness?

So much worries.
But i got more worries about my pig! =p

Somehow i really wish after waking up, i could go back to the days days whereas i'm still a little girl.
There's not so much worries, all i need to do is Study, eat, play and sleep.
If really can turn back the time,
I'll make sure I'll make full use of my life.
Study hard, learn everything in life.
Not gonna miss it again.
Also love my mom a lot.
If everything can restart.
I guess my mom would give me/us a better memories and life.
Until now then i start to love my mom.
Really really love. It's beyond words could express.
But i dunno why i always show the wrong actions.

Whenever i fall in my life, she's always the only one to be there
hug me. love me. pamper me. make sure nobody could bully us.
No matter how much she dislike pets, still let me keep my monster and goldie.
When we r sick she'd always be the 1st to nag as well as take care of us.

But i guess it's too late to realize.
because I've hurt her far too much.
No matter how time heals or wad i do to amend,
The scars remains.
Invisible injuries is the most painful also the hardest to heal.

And she's already in her age.
i only got @ most 60yrs more to love her.

No matter how much i wish to love,
i dunno why, i always unable to show out.
I really afraid I'd regret some day.
For not doing what i wanna to for her.
Every months i gave her money but the way i passed her was like unwillingly.

Gosh! Pls pls pls.
let me love her. Not only by my heart also my actions and attitude. 12/16/2009 04:35:00 AM