Felt like drinking...
Whenever i wanting to drink, Baby knew something's troubling me.

I also dunno why i feels so emotional.
My heart feels so heavy, weird and jealousy?!
I'm really lost at this time. As i tried so hard, so far.
But when i met this obstacle,
i dunno how to manage my feelings as well as my emotions.

If not because of my baby, i guess i'd fall badly again.
Just like what he mention.
I can say, i'll be the same torturing myself.
cause it's the best way to numb myself.
Not letting the person inside me hurts..
This is the only method i could do to protect the person inside me.
What i can say is the real me mayb not judge by my appearances.
I know more clearly than anyone else.
that this person i'm hiding inside me is far more fragile.
She's once hurts very badly and unable to stand up again.
But with her family and the encouragement, she make it again.
Luckily, now i'm having my baby with me.
I'm already at my limit. I'm about to collapse.
But with him around i need not worry~
Cause he'd held me up tightly when i fall~

The feeling i'm having now is not as bad as my baby~
cause, all along he's trying to protect me from anything.
unwilling to see his precious behaving this way.
Also he loved me so much,
yet i still can't let go abt the history that guy left for me~

My baby is stronger more than i expect...
that's how he's able to be able hold on to me this far...



2/27/2010 12:09:00 AM