Why did i change?!
Why am i becoming so evil and mean?!
Where's the kind dumdum?
who did things for other nv ask for anything in return?!

Why is it that i'm so easily get depression & agitated in SG?!
Somehow the only way to ease myself
is to drink and drunk...

I really hate it to the max on how i'm behaving right now!!
was it cause by the stress or wad?
In some sense i wish i could leave this world.
Another part of my thinking i can't bare the peeps i loved!
My heart is so unstable yet i'm still drinking~
Maybe I'm searching for a place to relieve myself...

Really tired..
I'm just buried everything within myself...
i must learn to shut my mouth~
REALLY NEEDS TO!!

I can't cry as my eyes wont listens to me.
I also dunno how to ease the pain & nightmare within me...

I hav everything i need but still i'm behaving like this,
that makes me nuts!
It is not cause of him or my family...
He treat me really nice..
My family too~

The problems lies on me!
God i return u my heart~
Pls return me my laughter & freedom!
Set me,family & him free!~




7/31/2010 01:10:00 AM