Dear diary,
I'm back again.. I notice I have been keeping track of all my unhappiness rather than happiness. Perhaps happiness in life is really difficult to achieve in life. Although I always say "share your love and expect less in life" then you will achieve more happiness. It's easy and nice to be put in words than actions.  Another chapter of my story has been created. However, it doesn't seem to be a nice chapter for me though~ No matter which chapters I am starting or ending, there's always ups and downs, story and lessons to learn from it. Nonetheless, I'm still trying to learn and be positive, exploring and controlling my own emotions. Did plenty of reflections by questioning myself. In 2013, it wasn't a good year for me. Neither 2014. On the very first day, many things happened. Heartaches, weak health, and many incidents occur. The worst thing happened that day was "my mom was hit by a bastard!" and I realize the bonding between my sisters and I has been a rupture. We no longer is as close as before. That hurts my mom's heart badly.

Sometimes, your heart needs longer time to accept what your mind already know.
1/04/2014 06:45:00 AM